u/1dumbgay

Hello all. I'm at my wits end. I'm a 29 year old man who is purely same sex attracted. I'm trying to follow Christ but I find that I don't have much peace, joy, or hope. When I try to commit to celibacy fully and give up hope of a romantic relationship I find myself depressed, hopeless, resentful, and angry. But if I were to pursue a relationship I'd feel shame and guilt and a constant fear of damnation. It's driving me crazy. My church members tell me to tough it out and how brave I'm being meanwhile they all constantly talk about the blessings of marriage and family. I'm just not sure how much longer I can keep going and I'm scared my faith is about to break.

Hey y'all! I'm looking to make friends here and hopefully have someone to chat with! Right now the two biggest things in my life are faith and fitness! I spend time not working at church or the gym. However I have plenty of other nerdy Interests! I love videogames (kingdom hearts) anime (a certain scientific railgun) reading (stormlight archive) and tons of other stuff!!! Feel free to shoot me a msg telling me Abt yourself!