Idk what i have to look forward to in my future
Im 23 and one year out of college and i see no point in anything. I graduated with a shitty degree i figured out far too late i dont really care about. I have no idea what i want to do with my life and i dont have the resources to spend another few years and thousands of dollars for another bad degree ill end up not liking all over again. I had a minimum wage gas station job for a while and finally found what i thought would be something better but it turned out to be absolutely horrible and borderline unsafe so i quit after a month and now im back to being jobless and my hopes are at an all time low. The best i can hopr for is maybe making 15 an hour one day if im lucky which is still nothing.
My family is the only reason im not homeless but i think that will be enevitable in the future though once they pass away or, more likely, get tired of me and see me for the parasite i am. Im such a washout and every one of my friends and people i knew in high school are doing worlds better than me, I FAILED AT LIFE.
I know everyone says the dreaded s word isnt the answer but im barely holding it together now, idk how ill ever have a good life especially when the state of the world will only keep getting worse and worse each year. Things will keep getting more expensive, jobs will get even harder to find. Is it worth it to be alive when youre trapped in perpetual homelessness and constantly fighting to stay alive with no hope of things ever improving?