u/3r1cki1

Not saying that I'm unwilling to spend on a woman or even that I won't buy if I'm down bad but, sometimes I want something that is less transactional and more genuine connection.

In town where do I go for a quick 420 session?

Just a small back-story, me and my ex separated about 2 months back. We have a kid(4 years old) and it was one of those emotion fueled decisions. We had been having issues for the last year or so. None of us cheated, we were having sex often enough and there was no infidelity as far as I know or am concerned.

A friend of mine who knows us both has advised me to make ammends but I am not sure if that's the right decision for me personally.

I love the woman but I don't want to go back as things stand. I feel this is a pivotal decision that will become a part of my character dealing with her. I don't think I see myself with who she is.

I could describe how much I love this woman and none of that will do justice to the emotion I feel for her. I know exactly what to do to get her back but at this point am asking myself "is she worth the effort?"

I'm pretty sure I can woo her and get back together but every instinct in me is saying that isn't what I should be doing right now. I have wrote that text so many times but something in me always deletes it before I press send.

My question might be stupid but I gotta ask, is love worth how much we loose of ourselves just to be with someone?

Edit 1. For those asking what ended things between us

I quite my job on 31st Dec 2025. I had plans of what to do since then and I'm not kidding when I say life can give proper lessons on humility. I tried farming, didn't make enough returns to go again. Most recently I acquired a loan and plan on investing in a certain venture but it's stalling. She saw this as me being reckless and it caused a lot of friction between us. There had been several other issues before this where I made big moves without involving her in the decision. I know I should inquire about her thoughts sometimes but usually I have a good thought process before doing anything risky. I don't rush, I gather information, I feel out the idea among peers and eventually I get what I want.

Finish the sentence and let's hear why you're in love, or not, or seeking love

But is it worth the effort?

Just a small back-story, me and my ex separated about 2 months back. We have a kid(4 years old) and it was one of those emotion fueled decisions. We had been having issues for the last year or so. None of us cheated, we were having sex often enough and there was no infidelity as far as I know or am concerned.

A friend of mine who knows us both has advised me to make ammends but I am not sure if that's the right decision for me personally.

I love the woman but I don't want to go back as things stand. I feel this is a pivotal decision that will become a part of my character dealing with her. I don't think I see myself with who she is.

I could describe how much I love this woman and none of that will do justice to the emotion I feel for her. I know exactly what to do to get her back but at this point am asking myself "is she worth the effort?"

I'm pretty sure I can woo her and get back together but every instinct in me is saying that isn't what I should be doing right now. I have wrote that text so many times but something in me always deletes it before I press send.

My question might be stupid but I gotta ask, is love worth how much we loose of ourselves just to be with someone?

Edit 1. For those asking what ended things between us

I quite my job on 31st Dec 2025. I had plans of what to do since then and I'm not kidding when I say life can give proper lessons on humility. I tried farming, didn't make enough returns to go again. Most recently I acquired a loan and plan on investing in a certain venture but it's stalling. She saw this as me being reckless and it caused a lot of friction between us. There had been several other issues before this where I made big moves without involving her in the decision. I know I should inquire about her thoughts sometimes but usually I have a good thought process before doing anything risky. I don't rush, I gather information, I feel out the idea among peers and eventually I get what I want.

I read a post somewhere saying that the human digestive system shares more with carrion feeders than with grazers and I was like "this can't be true". So down the rabbit hole I went fact checking this tdibit and what I found is a tale for another day. Point is, I as a human being am biologically wired to consume meat and sometimes bone, much more comfortably than fresh greens. Point is, don't fear the meat

Of late I've seen a rise in people "accepting themselves". This is mostly evidenced by weird kinks, vulgarity masked as "loving oneself" and people all around just being too expressive and accepting of abnormalities as okay behaviour. I'm not hear to judge but what happened to integrity and shame? Why would you admit to gooning to random strangers like a creep or point out how you're plotting to "seduce and romp" your neighbour who is already in a relationship? Don't y'all find it weird that you are being creepy and since it's all anonymous you should at the very least present your best instead of just being cringe content material? Sometimes my Reddit feed reads like some bad Polynesian sexual dram coz if it's not gay shit it's weird shit and if both are missing then it's just "seeking" posts. I want a day when I see people embracing their freedom of expression by making posts that don't incite disgust and cringe

https://reddit.com/link/1uiolgy/video/6nevuaa677ah1/player

It's always one or the other. No two ways about it

As my breath mists in the night

I feel the echo of you lips on mine

I feel the cold on my ribs

And I miss the touch of your body on mine,

We Círù mwarí wa Wanjiku,

I miss you.

But, I hate you

I don't hate you like someone who broke my heart

I hate you only someone who knows you could have loved can

I hate you like someone who knows exactly what you are doing right now but can't participate

I hate you only the way someone who loved you could

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Comment your fave colour and upvote we see if we can even out the math

Look at me with those crazy eyes.

Look at me and make my spine tingle

Look at me like you're plotting my death

Look at me and embrace the madness within

Look at me and try to drive fear with your gaze

But don't look away when I respond in kind

Don't look away when the heat starts to rise

Don't look away when your breath gets hitched

Don't look away when prey becomes predator

Look at me with those crazy eyes.

Look at me and make my spine tingle

Look at me like you're plotting my death

Look at me and embrace the madness within

Look at me and try to drive fear with your gaze

But don't look away when I respond in kind

Don't look away when the heat starts to rise

Don't look away when your breath gets hitched

Don't look away when prey becomes predator