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I'm sure this has been mentioned at least once, but I haven't seen such posts yet. I want to talk about the historical inaccuracy.

So far this game has been so good, but I don't get door 3. 1869, and yet the music sounds like it's well from the next century as well as the overall atmosphere feels like that.

Does this game just take place in alternative history where some things were developed early, and others later? Did the makers just "rush" the development of such music and style in fatamoru's timeline for the sake of "cool" and "aesthetic"? They could have just set the door in the 1920s.

This inconsistency bothers me a lot.

It was a certain traumatic situation in my life (losing someone I loved with my entire heart) that made me reach this point. I don't know if it is a compulsion of sorts (I have OCD), but at one point I kept repeating in my head the reasons why I'm still alive. It once got to the point where I had to have that reason written down in front of my eyes constantly. Then I realised it doesn't solve anything and gave up on it. Now I'm exhausted mentally and I feel like even finding a perfect reason won't satisfy me anymore and make me want to live anymore. I just don't want to live anymore and that's it. No amount of existential compulsions can cover up that fact.

I am not sure where to ask this exactly but it definitely falls theme-wise into this subreddit.

Have more people been getting this heavy feeling on their chest as of the last year and worsening aroung 6 months ago? I know something is wrong but I can't tell what. I'm in constant anxiety and pain and it seems to be beyond the physical level. Something shifted in the world and I can't feel the way I did before. I also see so much fakeness and hate everywhere. I also can't stop feeling like something bad on a world scale is about to happen. Considering all the events that are happening already and the truth that is being revealed it makes great sense. I want to know if this is an actual change people have been feeling too or the problem is just mine.

Yo, I'm not doing well mentally to the point I have to isolate myself and I'm genuinely losing my mind, searching for random activities to not spiral into agony.

I'm extremely bored and lonely and I need at least some kind of adrenaline.

I've learned how to keep myself company since I did it for most of my life but now that I abandoned most of my generic hobbies like art-related bs, I'm running out of interesting ideas.

So, what are your ideas, or what did you do when you were in a similar situation?

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*Important note is I live in a very strict household, however half of the time I'm home alone.

Do you think prayers can evoke God's mercy so that He gives those who died by suicide eternal peace in heaven? Especially if they had accepted Jesus as their savious before?