Reclaiming a room after a death
So my mom passed away a year and a half ago. I was her caregiver. I've dealt with the death for the most part, so this isn't really about that.I still live here (really want to leave the area, or at least the house, but it would cost too much to do that and put me in a bind). So I'm here, and have reclaimed the space for the most part.
However, the back bedroom, which was her room, has been repurposed as an ebay storage space and creative art studio. So part of the room is set up for art, by a small window. The main wall - where her bed was (where her bed and nightstands were are outlined in red)- is basically a cluttered pile of inventory not moving on ebay (interesting that the resellers' term for that is a 'death pile.').
She was in that room and for the last year or so, bedbound and very sick.
My problems with the space are 1) I walk in there and don't feel good in the space, since she was so sick. So it's no wonder it's hard to create in there.
- the ebay space is cluttered, but I've nowhere else to put it. The inventory isn't moving, it's just sitting there. Some of it is her boxes of books which I am sellign online - they are old and rare. I hope to move them out but it may take time. The rest is just disorganized inventory. I feel like I'm buried under stuff and clutter.
I'd like to get rid of her furniture which is too much, and is cluttering the space up but right now I"m using the dressers to store inventory. The main dresser is useful as an ebay photography place and the drawers hold art supplies, so it's functional. Teh other dressers and the nightstands could go.
However, if I were to move that somwehre else (where?) and out of that room, tear down the wallpaper, repaint the walls, put my prized purple couch in there, it would still be the place where she had her bed and I don't see how the space could ever feel good.
I've smudged the room, blessed it, done everything I can to reclaim it, but it still feels awful sometimes to go in there. What can I do to reclaim that space?.(it's worth mentioning that the previous owner had that room and also had a terminal illness)>
Suggestions appreciated. Thank you
Picture attached. Upper left hand corner faces East.
