u/AcceptableFloor788

hi everyone happy thursday.

i find it pretty hard to not be triggered/or just upset by others. i am trying to remember that my journey is UNIQUE and individual. but wow it is hard to not feel terrible when folks around you discuss weight, clothing sizes, eating (in general), dieting, exercise....all the stuff.

does anyone have some helpful advice? im truly taking it one day at a time.

some days its so easy to feel the weight of all the feelings....and sometimes i just feel like im stuck in a hole with no way up.

sending love to you all. im so very grateful for this sub & the wonderful mods. you guys make such an amazing community <3 - jess

hi everyone happy thursday.

i find it pretty hard to not be triggered/or just upset by others. i am trying to remember that my journey is UNIQUE and individual. but wow it is hard to not feel terrible when folks around you discuss weight, clothing sizes, eating (in general), dieting, exercise....all the stuff.

does anyone have some helpful advice? im truly taking it one day at a time.

some days its so easy to feel the weight of all the feelings....and sometimes i just feel like im stuck in a hole with no way up.

sending love to you all. im so very grateful for this sub & the wonderful mods. you guys make such an amazing community <3 - jess

still learning a lot & growing in recovery.

just started my meal plan & beyond grateful for my dietician. she is teaching me SO much & helping me to feel more comfortable.

im having a hard time knowing its ok to eat more than my meal plan (my dietician told me its GOOD to eat more & recommended). i do love the plan for structure though.

im still struggling tremendously with the idea that it is okay to eat until i feel full & satisfied. at this point, it takes a LOT!

im also still craving mostly sweets. i know that makes sense for energy and healing.

my edema and swelling are the worst. i am so sore all the time! i also have no energy ever. that is to be expected right? i really would like it to get better.

also, I struggle a lot bc when I do allow myself to eat to my extreme hunger or cravings … I have such bad urges to purge. but we are back on day 4 with no purge .

most days all I can think about is food and sleeping hahah! hopefully that doesn’t sound strange.

i also still struggle very much because i am attempting to recover in a body that doesn’t “look” on the outside as though I am struggling. that’s hard!

have a wonderful weekend!!!!

still learning a lot & growing in recovery.

just started my meal plan & beyond grateful for my dietician. she is teaching me SO much & helping me to feel more comfortable.

im having a hard time knowing its ok to eat more than my meal plan (my dietician told me its GOOD to eat more & recommended). i do love the plan for structure though.

im still struggling tremendously with the idea that it is okay to eat until i feel full & satisfied. at this point, it takes a LOT!

im also still craving mostly sweets. i know that makes sense for energy and healing.

my edema and swelling are the worst. i am so sore all the time! i also have no energy ever. that is to be expected right? i realty would like it to get better.

most days all I can think about is food and sleeping hahah! hopefully that doesn’t sound strange.

i also still struggle very much because i am attempting to recover in a body that doesn’t “look” on the outside as though I am struggling. that’s hard!

have a wonderful weekend!!!!

still learning a lot & growing in recovery.

just started my meal plan & beyond grateful for my dietician. she is teaching me SO much & helping me to feel more comfortable.

im having a hard time knowing its ok to eat more than my meal plan (my dietician told me its GOOD to eat more & recommended). i do love the plan for structure though.

im still struggling tremendously with the idea that it is okay to eat until i feel full & satisfied. at this point, it takes a LOT!

im also still craving mostly sweets. i know that makes sense for energy and healing.

my edema and swelling are the worst. i am so sore all the time! i also have no energy ever. that is to be expected right? i realty would like it to get better.

most days all I can think about is food and sleeping hahah! hopefully that doesn’t sound strange.

i also still struggle very much because i am attempting to recover in a body that doesn’t “look” on the outside as though I am struggling. that’s hard!

have a wonderful weekend!!!!

hi everyone.

im devastated because I was about 11 days with no purging. & i just had a relapse. im trying to recover so badly but its just been awful.

i’ve dealt with a restrictive eating disorder for 13 years but only developed bulimia the past few months. at times, I was considered underweight but im not anymore (especially after trying to recover for the past month).

i can’t tell if my current increase in weight is due to edema or genuine weight gain. it is TERRIFYING. my face is super puffy. my body genuinely hurts and is sore. i feel like I just look like a marshmallow lol.

i don’t know what to do. i want to recover. i want to get better. but this illness makes me hate myself so much & hate my body.

please tell me your tips or any thoughts you have. is there anything you wish you knew going into recovery? i can’t live like this. i have my first appt with a dietician on tuesday & im terrified.

thank you, with love.💕

hi everyone.

im devastated because I was about 11 days with no purging. & i just had a relapse. im trying to recover so badly but its just been awful.

i’ve dealt with a restrictive eating disorder for 13 years but only developed bulimia the past few months. at times, I was considered underweight but im not anymore (especially after trying to recover for the past month).

i can’t tell if my current increase in weight is due to edema or genuine weight gain. it is TERRIFYING. my face is super puffy. my body genuinely hurts and is sore. i feel like I just look like a marshmallow lol.

i don’t know what to do. i want to recover. i want to get better. but this illness makes me hate myself so much & hate my body.

please tell me your tips or any thoughts you have. is there anything you wish you knew going into recovery? i can’t live like this. i have my first appt with a dietician on tuesday & im terrified.

thank you, with love.

hi all. happy tuesday.

im just struggling & im hoping for some support/even just reminding me that im not alone in this. when i do give in to my extreme hunger, i struggle because the next day i often will attempt to revert back to unhealthy behaviors. i fear the changes in my body (mostly the weight changes that occur). looking in the mirror I don’t recognize myself and that is hard.

im struggling to know if im experiencing edema — I believe it is because everything looks so puffy. i was feeling really reallly really tender and sore but it has subsided a bit. i’ve only been a month “ish” in recovery (but truly I don’t know if I can count it or not because I tend to have good days but then fall back on unhealthy behaviors when im scared). some days I wake up in pain but as i’ve started eating more the pain is subsiding but I feel like I look still. very swollen. basically all clothes is uncomfortable and my skin feels so uncomfortable.

i’ve been having night sweats every night and it’s not fun. i also just feel like my body image is even worse truly.

i think my biggest struggle is just trying to realize i DO deserve to get better. i don’t need to look a certain way in order to recover. i don’t want to continue being unhappy, damaging my body & overall feeling so so so down about life.

eating disorders suck !!!!!

hi everyone! my therapist recommended me to begin working with a dietician (valid).

I have my first appointment scheduled in the next two weeks and I am TERRIFIED. i’ve never worked with a dietician before and my brain still wants to convince me that I am not sick enough to need a dietician. i often know what the correct and healthy thing is to do … but im simply not engaging in it.

i’m really hoping it will help to take the “mental gymnastics” out of planning what to eat. i really want to be “all in” with food/eating intuitively but my therapist is wondering if that’s not possible for me (at least at this time). mostly because when i do give into my extreme hunger, I typically tend to immediately purge afterwards.

is there any helpful advice or thoughts you have on working with a dietician? have you ever found it triggering? im slightly worried that having a meal plan could also backfire for me and make me super rigid to that meal plan rather than branching out.

im also just terrified of potentially gaining weight with a meal plan (likely because im not underweight so yeah … huge fear!)

hope this all makes sense. hope you’re all taking care of yourselves!!! :)