u/AccomplishedBulk9380

I am currently 18m.

I believe I was around 9 or 10 when the Incident happened but I also might have been a bit younger or older, because I remember seeing the boy when I was in middle school.

I knew that he was definitely older than me. The only way I can remember for sure is that he had pubic hair, and I didn't.

He had come over to my house only once. And the entire time, I was trying to play video games with him, or show off my legos. But every time I would turn around he would be touching himself. At first I had no idea what he was doing. When I asked he said he was "beating his meat". I obviously didn't understand what that meant, so I ignored it. He would not pay attention to anything I would show him, like any of my cool toys or my computer.

Eventually I gave up and brought him to the final thing I thought was pretty cool, which was a tent in my backyard. It was pretty large. About 10x10 feet. But as soon as we got in, he was immediately taking off his pants and grabbing his penis. I was a little shaken up because I didn't know what he was doing. He then told me to take my pants off too, and I reluctantly followed. He kept trying to explain masturbation to me, and I just didn't understand. He would make me touch myself. I had never heard of masturbation before that day, and sometimes I think he's the only real way I learned what it was.

I don't even think it was a year after this incident that I started masturbating myself.

He ended up ejaculating on his hand and told me it was normal. I was afraid that Mom would think me and him were doing something inappropriate so I took him inside to wash his hands. But he kept trying to get me to do it.

I'm still not sure what to think about this incident. It wasn't nearly as traumatizing as when my dad groped me in my sleep but it definitely changed my views on sex and masturbation for years.

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And just to be clear I don't necessarily think he was a pedophile. And I don't have any reason to believe his behaviors continued. But when I told friends about what happened, he told me "I thought we were friends. Why would you tell people what we did?". I'm pretty sure both him and me were in a close age group. Just on different stages of puberty.

Even if he was older, he was also a child. Probably no more than 2 years older than me. I'm sure of this because I developed pubic hair and began masturbating only 1-2 years after the incident.

I hadn't heard his name spoken of before or since so I imagine he didn't do this to other children, and he was just curious.

Any help would be appreciated

I already posted this in another sub but here it is.

This has been haunting me for a very long time and I need some support. I'm 18 now.

I don't remember exactly when. But I'm fairly certain both me and the victim were close to the same age, between the ages of 7-9. I would ask her to show her "parts" if you understand what I mean. And I would compare. I think it was curiosity at first about the female body. I didn't know anything about sex or what it was. All I knew about it was two people kissing in the nude. So I didn't know that it was sexual. My parents only gave me the talk once they found out what I was doing with her. The bad part was that I almost never listened when she said no. I would keep pressuring her and asking until my parents had the talk with me. And then I didn't really do anything like that again. I never learned about masturbation until much later when I was around 10 or 11. An older boy had come over to my house and kept trying to show me him masturbating and getting me to do the same even when I asked him to stop. I also know my father sexually abused me around that time or somewhere in my childhood. Maybe multiple times because he was almost definitely a pedophile.

What I did brought up a lot of guilt and I think it could be part of the root of a lot of mental health issues I'm going through right now like depression, anxiety and OCD. I need some words of advice. Anyone reading this and helping me out would be really appreciated. If anyone wants to vent as well, you're welcome to.

This has been haunting me for a very long time and I need some support. I'm 18 now.

I don't remember exactly when. But I'm fairly certain me and the victim were both between the ages of 7-9. I would ask her to show her "parts" if you understand what I mean. And I would compare. I think it was curiosity at first, but later it was sort of exciting. I didn't know anything about sex or what it was. All I knew about it was two people kissing in the nude. So I didn't know that it was sexual. My parents only gave me the talk once they found out what I was doing with her. The bad part was that I never listened when she said no. I would keep pressuring her and asking until my parents had the talk with me. And then I didn't really do anything like that again.

It's brought up a lot of guilt and I think it could be part of the root of a lot of mental health issues I'm going through right now like depression, anxiety and OCD. I need some words of advice. Anyone reading this and helping me out would be really appreciated.

I don't want to be a pedophile

Idk if I have the energy to describe it yet but it happened and I think it's a step towards healing.

If you have any questions or would like to read some passages feel free to leave a comment or DM me. I even have a cover for the book made. (I like getting creative with it).

It mashes up a few different canons but ultimately follows a strict canon that I have created that follows a storyline. It is quite different from most other SCP projects and canons I've encountered thus far and I think it will be pretty interesting.

I know narcissism gets romanticized in the media and gets downplayed a lot to the point that some people just think it's being overly tacky or extroverted or controlling. But holy shit, dude. This sucks. Being someone with narcissistic tendencies sucks. Because I literally have no idea whether what I say or think is genuine, or just self validation. I don't know if I really want to be empathetic, or if I want to be seen as empathetic. I know (or at least I think I know) I want to be a good person. But idk what that means to me.

I want to be a good person. I know you have probably heard that from both people who were lying about it, and from people who are not true narcissists, but I think I have some traits that I find concerning.

I can be quiet, but I consider myself extroverted. I like being around people just as much as I like being alone.

But I have a habit of trying to constantly make impressions on new faces. I can lose my temper at times. My biological Father is a narcissist and I looked up to him for the longest time in my life, not knowing he was secretly a monster who had molested me and my best friend when we were children. I have trouble with empathy. I can comfort people who are in pain, but unless it's something extreme or shocking, like a reaction to a death, I have trouble bringing myself to their wavelength.

One of these times was when I saw a mother react to her son dying. That was one of the few times I can say I felt real empathy. Others are when I see someone in physical pain.

There have been times that I was driven to tears, like when we put my dog down. The world feels very lonely without her. And when my surrogate father passed away from liver failure. He was the closest thing I had to a true father figure after my bio dad left the picture.

I've said and done cruel things to people. Things I wish I could take back. A lot of these things were done when I was young and still learning, but other times I feel like a monster.

I want to be good. I want to be a good person. I don't want to be like my dad. But I don't know if that is because I want to be admired, or if it's because I truly want greatness in my heart. I need help.

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The game takes place in an experimental modular facility somewhere in Canada. We get confirmation that it's not site 19 because of a transcript in the facility stating that they will be contacting site 19 for backup and repairs. This is also the reason why we see SCPs that are not from site 19, and which are geolocked like 1162, as well as ones that are from site 19, due to being transferred. Nowhere on the wiki was it stated that site-19 was a modular site, and we also hear some French voice lines from across the facility in commotion during the breakout, which implies an average number of people in the site speak French. As a Canadian myself, I don't personally see or hear many French people around like at all in my part of Canada, which leads me to believe it takes place somewhere near Quebec and Montreal. The mountain ranges seen outside are also photographed in Canada, if I'm not mistaken. This also explains why the military did not show up, because the Canadian army doesn't exactly have the resources or the detection capabilities that the US has, cause there are pretty much 11 main bases (CFBs) in Canada aside from the various smaller military installations we have here, and a noteworthy lack of manpower. Had this happened in the US, we can probably assume the foundation would be asking for military support, or wouldn't really have a choice as the US would have found out one way or another and dropped in via the CIA, or UIU, or Pentagram.