u/AddisonArlert

It sucks that because I’m in Canada, the shipping is always $60+ (and that’s in USD, meaning it’s waaay more in CAD), so I’m never able to order as often as I’d like. Not the shops’ faults, of course, just an unfortunate thing that I wish would change.

But I think it’s worth it. I wince when I look at the price of each order, but… well… that can be forgotten about! I’ve been going through HELL recently, so I deserve this.

Can you guess my favourite general texture lol?

Her back looks very tortie, but she has a fully white belly, chest, and feet.

I have stage 3 or 4 endometriosis (assuming based on my symptoms). As of right now, I have an endometrioma on my left ovary that is sitting at 7.4cm (almost 3 inches), a smaller cyst at about 3cm on my right ovary. My left ovary—as I JUST FOUND OUT ONLY FUCKING YESTERDAY—is tethered to my uterus. No fucking wonder everything feels so connectedly painful. Shitting makes my organs feel bad and painful and just… out of place.

I’ve had a cyst on my left ovary for years that has ruptured twice (potentially more times, but it has two confirmed ruptures). It has caused me HELL throughout my life; I’m bloated, have a bad stomach, can’t even walk or move some days, and am exhausted from constantly being pain.

I’ve been told numerous times by numerous doctors: “just a cyst. No big deal; women get them all the time. We only remove them if they’re large and causing problems”, “just another hemorrhagic cyst”, “just a cyst, try pain management at home”, etc. One absolutely pathetic and useless male doctor lectured me for 10 minutes about how ‘cysts don’t do much other than cause a little bit of pain’, and finally said “if you really want, I can refer you to a gynaecologist”. That’s what the fucking appointment was for to begin with. He referred me to a FERTILITY CLINIC, that had no gynaecological care for my needs.

I started having early symptoms at 13, and nobody listened to me. Not my mother, not the doctor I begged my mother to take me to for my excruciating cramps and concerningly heavy bleeding. Nobody listened. Nobody helped me. Now I am freshly 23 and have my first private doctor. Thank god I don’t want kids, because my left ovary is beyond saving and god knows what’s grown on my uterus at this point.

I have to pay $250 CAD a month to be properly treated for everything, but I feel that it’s so worth it because this doctor is incredible.

He’s actively looking for a gynaecologist, and I’m going to get surgery as soon as possible. I still plan on thinking long and hard about it, but as of right now I think I want to remove both my left ovary and uterus, keeping my right ovary for hormonal reasons.

TEN. FUCKING. YEARS. Several ruptures, so many tears, so many days spent in bed crying, hunched over while the heating pad didn’t even work. My stomach has probably taken a bit of damage from the amount of naproxen I’ve had to take, as it’s the only thing that works.

I deserve a cake. Hell, I deserve a whole fucking party. FUCK endometriosis, and FUCK every single doctor that’s dismissed me. 🥂

Oh, yeah. Dinner (or breakfast) is avocado toast on whole wheat bread (extra fibre for the iron I’ve been taking thanks to new doctor) with lemon pepper seasoning, bit of balsamic vinaigrette because I didn’t have balsamic glaze, and feta. It was quite good.

EDIT: to add onto this…. They kept telling me that the left endometrioma was ‘just a hemorrhagic cyst’. EVERY! TIME! It surely is not, and the brown discharge I get during 70% of my fucking cycle that causes my vulva to itch and go irritated worse than anything else also tells me that it’s not. They also DID NOT tell me that my cyst has doubled in size my last ER visit. Or that I have one on my right ovary (which I had a feeling I did!!! I FUCKING KNEW IT!!!!). My new doctor told me when he checked my charts. FUCK!!!!!

EDIT2: Thank you all for your kind words and support. Seriously. I appreciate every one of you. I wish I could reply to everyone, but unfortunately I am currently overwhelmed and exhausted. Take my upvote instead.

Found for $25 at a thrift store. Won’t be too disheartened or surprised if it isn’t, just curious.

I think he should probably get down from there? I saw a lightning strike behind him in the sky a moment after I took this photo lmao

And to think that people still think climate change isn’t real.

First pic is the guy that landed almost right next to me as I sat on the porch steps. He just chilled for a bit.

Last week, I couldn’t even step outside into the grass without being SWARMED with at least 20 mosquitos… I’ve never seen that many at once in my lifetime. Our yard is sloped, so the rainwater collects in the grass, thus Mosquito Wonderland.

Today I stepped out to check on our fruit trees, and I saw ZERO MOSQUITOES!! ZERO BITES!! There are many, many dragonflies flying around and chilling in our yard, so I bet they’re the reason. Thanks, dragonflies! I almost want to get a cute dragonfly tattoo, because these little dudes are making me so happy in a period of healing.

I love them; to us, they’re helping us tremendously by getting rid of our yard mosquitos. To them? It’s just one big feast, lol. Yum

Unfortunately they have stopped producing this set, but it is my dream bathroom set. I cannot find it for sale anywhere.

EDIT: I am located in Canada, so .ca listings are preferred to avoid too crazy of shipping costs.

Not to mention the millions of mosquitos that immediately cling to me the second I’m outside. Sick!