How do I know If i'm butch?
I'd like to preface this by saying i know looks don't matter when it comes to being butch, but i still have my concerns.
I've felt more connected to masculinity than femininity all my life. I remember being jealous of my male classmates as a teenager for having social structures not commonly present in female communities, all while being a woman (i considered being trans, but that's not me). It sounds silly, but I'm still very jealous of the stereotype of middle aged men grilling and inhaling peanuts all the time (that should be ME!).
I mostly present masculine - all my skirts and dresses have been rotting away in my closet ever since i gained the ability to choose my own clothes as a teenager. My concern is that I sometimes present feminine. It feels like I'm putting on a costume rather than it being me, but that still stops me from using the butch label. I also don't present 100% masculine either. I want to have long hair, I don't mind wearing skin-tight shirts (mostly black tank tops though because they're the ones that don't look TOO feminine), i wear tons of jewelry, etc.
TLDR, I connect a LOT with the butch label, but I feel like i don't fit into the category enough to call myself that.