u/AestheticallyFox

i own an inspiroy H430P, everything about this tablet is perfect for my needs and i cant complain. i use it for art and osu!.
a while ago i got a cleaner to clean my house, i haven't seen my pen since and assumed they accidentally threw it away.

happens, not that big of a bummer, i can just order a new pen-
huion wants 120$ shipping for a 18$ pen.

never mind then, i hate living in an inaccessible area, i go on local shop websites; they only sell the tablet with the pen AND THE NIBS. NO REPLACEMENT PEN ANYWHERE.

went on amazon, only one shop is shipping to my location. JACKPOT. i order the pen.
it works for the first session. im quite a rage quitter, ended up throwing the pen against the wall, nothing i haven't done with my previous, original pen.

next session, i sit down and start warming up, but the pen is acting weird. im playing in some kind of offset and nothing is pressing down.

my sensor broke. i can hear the spring moving and creaking, no nib is the only way it manages to function.
its either i get a whole new tablet or use no nib. how dangerous is this for the tablet? i cant afford a whole new tablet right now, its only a year old.

been dealing with dermatillomania forever. cant really treat it as other stuff bother me more.
it manifests in every blemish or scratch must be bleeding so it feels better. pimple? if it doesnt bleed, its not popped. wound? not bleeding, not satisfied. bug bite? you get it by this point.

every time i get a new tattoo i scab, no matter what (my skin is just prone for that). i cant help with the urges to pick and scratch it, so i do it as gently as i can and scratch only around the area as much as i can to avoid damage while it heals. currently on day 6 of the healing process and it feels like torture to my brain and body.

how do you guys handle the two weeks of not allowed to touch the tattoo except for when you do the daily aftercare? any life hacks / tips would be greatly appreciated as im slowly losing my mind and patience. thanks!

im a very small content creator on tiktok where i talk about my experience as a person with DID.
i made a post a while back mentioning i deal with PNES as well due to the trauma, and lots of people have asked me since about what pnes actually is in detail, mostly those who are questioning themselves.
im NOT diagnosed but it is suspected by multiple professionals.
any sources i can read and share? i want to make a good educational post about this topic as understandable to the public as possible.

writing this on mobile so im automatically sorry for the weird format.
everyone mentions that DID forms at "early childhood" or ages 6-9 approximately, yet me and my therapist (specialist in CDDS) are a tad bit confused over me having an alter from when we were 1-2 years old, knowing they formed back then due to how they look and their very weird memories.
arent we all just born a system whos just supposed to eventually "fuse" into one? why do professionals put the threshold at 6, if ive noticed multiple diagnosed systems have alters from way before that age..?

anyone else with alters from before the common threshold? would love to hear your opinions about this. -azrael (it/he)

edit:
some people understood me completely wrong and i apologize for this as i wrote this while still waking up and english is not our native language. i know the title seems like bait but honestly i just didnt know how to phrase it all!
we understand that the OSDDID experience is very individualized and "each person to their own" type thing, and can understand why professionals are not moving the threshold anywhere anytime soon.
thank you everyone for correcting and educating me :) -azrael