u/AilurophileRebecca

This is honestly such a huge issue for me and it only hurts me in the long run but I can’t control it, I have to much love in my heart that no one can handle.

My attachment issues stem from low self esteem, self hatred, abandonment, and loneliness. If you enter my life and treat me with the respect I wasn’t given in years I will be the happiest girl in the world…

I don’t have any friends irl, only online. My past online associates have always been in a different country or timezone.

However … love isnt real…no; love for me isnt real. No one truly will ever “want” or “love” me for me. I am simply just a burden for every friend I get which is why they leave me and I cry for weeks because why wasnt I enough for them??? They said they loved me??? Why did they lie to me.

There were days I would stay wide awake even on a school night just so I could talk to them and check in on them because even just the pop up of “[…] is typing” was like the most euphoric feeling in the world. I would wait and wait and wait for them to come online…I would stare at the screen just waiting and waiting.

Finally someone wants me, I truly thought, finally I can have someone to spend these moments with. Finally, I am no longer alone…I planned on buying them gifts…I was saving up money…honestly in those moments when we talked I would do anything for them!!

So then why did they leave me on read….
Why did they not respond for a week..some for a month…
Why did they say to someone that I was overwhelming
They told me it was fine…
What is so wrong with me???

Is it because im ugly??? Because I’m stupid?? Because I’m boring?? Because I’m obsessive?? Because I’m a loser??? I thought they said they liked obsessive people… why would you rather spend time with anyone else.

Why am I never anyone’s first option?

Just one person … one person..

But nope, they all just leave…it’s my fault too. In the end they are always happy…and I’m still just alone..forever

I’m sorry for being so pathetic….in the next life maybe we will truly be best friends forever.

They all hate me.

Personally for me it has to do with multiple psychological factors — however the idea of someone loving me so much to the point where they are absolutely obsessed and want me all to themselves sounds so nice. Especially to someone like me who gets very little social interaction (no friends, no partner, shunned out from most communities). Also since it’s fiction no one actually gets hurt!!

I also really like crazy characters … ahhh if they are a red flag or unhinged AHHHHH I love I love I love

I don’t even really care about the looks I just like the personality they are so awesome to me.

I love scrolling through this subreddit and fueling my daydreams

Hi ! I’ve been on Reddit for a year but I typically just lurk since I’m way too shy to actually interact with people. I’ve been trying for a while to find an actual community of femcels and not just those girls who are in a relationship and just say they are one to fit some stupid aesthetic! And I finally found one! So cool!