u/AirAggressive3235

I know most of you probably don't know who I am or care much, but I just thought I'd mention that. Don't worry; I haven't stopped loving my f/o's, certainly not! I just have a lot of personal stuff going on, insecurity, jelousy, self esteem issues etc etc.. I just need some time to step back and breathe to regain some controll in my life. I have some spiritual stuff I want to work on too, so I'll probably be pretty inactive for a little while. I feel kind of guilty, but I think I'll even step back from my f/o's for a while so I can rebuild my life and practice. That way I'll be able to come back to them as a safer, happier person.

Wishing you all a good rest of your morning/day/evening. You're all beautifull people and I love this community so much! Take care 💞

I love everything about my beatifull, strong, amazing boyfriend, except for one thing. I don't like that they chose to give him a female voice actor. I know it's a minor thing but it kind of gets on my nerves cause he's a boy, and I want him to sound like one too. It just plays up that whole trap (words can not describe how much I hate that transphobic term, ugh) thing that I really hate. Like just let my boy be a boy who likes to dress up in cute clothing 😭😭😭

(also btw, please don't say "make them real" or anything of that nature, cause that's obvious lol)

I don't have a clear idea of what I'm goign to write, so needless to say this will be sort of disorganized/messy.

I've been feeling insecure recently. Just all sorts of self doubt on top of the very stressfull time I've been having recently. Been feeling unworthy of love, like I'm never enough for anyone to love me in the way I want to be loved. I've been hearing people talk about my boyfriend, and shipping him with the mc of his show. I know it's just people talking, but part of me fears they might be right. I mean obviously they don't ship me with him cause they don't know about me, but still it upsets me. I mean obviously Astolfo likes him like that to some degree, which already (a little embarassing mind you) made me feel a little jealous, but now people are acting like they're the perfect couple.

And it apparently doesn't matter if it's canon or not, which is what I used to believe. All that matters is that I feel like I'm unlucky or just not good enough to be with him. And deep down I know we're a much better fit, but I can't really get that confirmation of "yes, I chose you". It kind of sucks cause I know I could've been much happier if it was me who got to be in his uiverse, but now we're so far apart. I doubt someone would give up something real for something so conveluted and divided (although that's what I basically did, though I doubt Astolfo is as lonely as to resort to that).

The bottom line is I don't feel good enough for him. He's amazing, kind, gorgeous, strong, talented (the list goes on and on), and I'm barely holding on. I have a passion for writing and music, but that's not going anywhere. I rarely feel like a good or kind person because no one ever needs my help or even wants to be with me. I feel as though he's leagues above me and I don't deserve him. But I hate feeling this way about myself, because I know that I'm really amazing if you'd try and get to know me. I'm just addicted to feeling like a worthless person just so that I wont be disapointed when I feel lonely when I'm lying alone in my bed again.

If there's anything to be taken from this, it's that I shouldn't hate myself so much (which again places blame on myself but whatever...), because I know it just makes me feel depressed again. I can't say much of anything, but I promise, both to myself and my partners, that I'll do my best to feel okay about myself and to stop pretending to be somethign I'm not just to get peoples approval. Because deep down I know they don't want me to feel this way about myself, and they want nothing more than me to be happy again.

If you read this, I thank you very much, you're very kind!

I personally keep out because of a number of reasons. Partly because I dislike fandoms in general and how they treat the source material, but mostly because of the shipping. I don't like seeing people ship my boyfriend, cause I'm like; Leave him alone, he should be with me! I mean that's a little childish maybe, but basically that's why I keep away from the fandoms.

Of course they chose you over everyone else! You guy's are meant for each other regardless of what people might say. All those other people don't matter, because you. are. canon! You could live a thousand lives and always come back to each other. No one makes a better pairing than you too, I promise! <3

I need help finding a quirk that would like fit well/compliment Tsu's frog quirk. If anyone has any tips I'd like to hear them cause I'm drawing a blank right now.

Not like talk talk, but usually my inner monolog is directed towards my partners. In my mind I'm kinda like talking to them and I think it's really fun, but admittedly it feels a bit strange. It's not like I'm out and about treating Tsu or Silvija like actual, physical people, but in many ways I feel that they're real. So even if they aren't physically with me, they're sort of spiritually always there. Am I crazy for this or does anyone else also do this??