u/Alexia_Hope

I tried posting a video, but it doesn't seem to want to work for me.

I've been having NATS issues and the other day I attempted to do a rolling start by myself. Unfortunately I had never done one before and managed to do it wrong. I didn't know I wasn't supposed to use the key, I did, and it made an awful grinding noise. I fear I may have damaged something. When the motor is off, it will move into every gear just fine, but as soon as the motor is on and it's at a standstill it's hard to shift. Once I start moving it's fine, though occasionally third has been giving me an issue.

I don't know if I damaged the clutch plate, flywheel, or something more catastrophic. I do have a new clutch I have not installed yet so trying to figure out what the issue could be so I can replace it. 🤦🏻‍♀️

Tyia

I hope this is allowed and I'm not really asking for medical advice. I really just need to vent.

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My cat, Ahsoka, is just under 3 years old and for the past year and a half we have been doing with anemia. She is overall very healthy but it seems like every 6 months she crashes again, we do thousands of dollars worth of tests, and we get no answers. Again and again. And I'm not at all blaming the vets. They are absolutely wonderful. I'm just so exhausted and stressed. I've spent probably $20k on her in this past year and a half and I'm not exaggerating. She's has 5 blood transfusions, hundreds of tests and vet visits. She just had a bone marrow biopsy this past week, which cost me another $2.8k after it was all said and done. After that they instructed me not to start her atopica yet but today she is showing signs of anemia (white gums, not eating) and I'm worried if she doesn't eat by tonight I'm going to be paying the emergency vet another visit for another 3k blood transfusion. I am absolutely blessed to have the money to do this but if I have to do that tonight I am completely broke until next week.

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I am absolutely exhausted and I don't want to give up on her but the money is just becoming so much to handle. I am trying to save for a house and pay bills and I'm spending most of my income on her care with no answers, just shots in the dark and more medication to try and keep her stable. She's so young and full of life and this anemia is just wrecking havoc on her and I. I'm so mentally exhausted. If she was showing signs of a poor quality of life this would almost be easier, but she's not. I don't know what to do anymore. I gave her a dose of her atopica, against instructions because I'm trying to prevent another transfusion. I'm trying to stay distracted and just hope she eats today.

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Im so close to giving up I don't even know what to do

Edit. It's 2pm now. She is still not eating, her gums are pale and she's doing the rapid breathing stuff I've been told to look out for. She ate a churu and a couple treats but I'm taking her to the emergency vet now. Probably going to be another transfusion 😔 hoping this will be the last time and we'll get her stabilized and back on meds

Edit 2. Confirmed we are getting another transfusion. They did tell me the bone marrow results are in and the internal medicine team (they are off on the weekends) will have contact with me Monday. For now she is staying at least overnight, possibly into Monday. Hoping it all goes well. She's had good results with the past blood transfusions (even if temporary).