I cry...I love...I want peace...I don't know how it feels...
I tremble...I scream....I want answers...for all the unease...
If there is any power...I hope you hear...I know that you care...
I know that you care...
Oh! Time, please be slow...for I want to know...my answers and prayers...
And tell the universe...that you also care...
I hope you care...
I wish you care....
Do you care?
I kept praying over ruins
as if broken things still returned
to the hands that loved them enough.
My eyes were swollen with hope,
my hands trembling with desperation,
and still I whispered to God,
“just one more chance…
please let this survive.”
I called it a phase.
I called it bad timing....
I called it everything
except the end.....
And then one winter evening,
a message arrived
cold enough to stop my heartbeat:
“There is no future left between us.”
In that moment,
something inside me collapsed so quietly
I swear I felt death brush past my soul.
The world blurred.
Voices faded.
My body was alive,
but I could not feel myself in it anymore.
People say heartbreak hurts,
but this was grief
the kind that buries you
while you are still breathing.
And even now,
after all this healing,
I still remember that winter day
like a nightmare
my heart never fully woke up from....
To strangers going through a breakup right now,
The first thing I want to say is... stop forcing yourself to be okay.
Seriously.
You do not have to act strong immediately. You do not have to pretend that it “doesn’t matter.” If someone was deeply connected to your life, if you imagined a future with them, then obviously it is going to hurt when they leave.
Let it hurt.
Cry. Overthink. Sit with the pain for some time. Let your mind process what actually happened instead of trying to distract yourself every second. Healing is not some 3-day process. Sometimes it takes months. Sometimes longer. And that is normal.
One thing that slowly helped me was training my brain to stop looking at the breakup like the end of my life.
I started thinking like this instead:
It’s good this happened now and not years later.
Because imagine finding out the same things after marriage. After building your whole life around someone. After being emotionally dependent on them for years. That pain would have destroyed me even more.
And no, this does not mean the other person was completely horrible. People are complicated. Some relationships fail even when feelings were real.
But when something breaks, there is always a reason somewhere underneath it. Sometimes we ignore things because we love too hard. Sometimes we see the signs but hope they will disappear.
Then after the breakup, all those little things suddenly make sense.
Another important thing ....do not spend all your energy trying to prove that the other person was bad.
Put that energy into yourself.
Tell yourself that you are still capable of finding healthy love. That one failed relationship is not proof that your life is over. There are still good people in this world. There are still connections waiting for you that will feel safer, calmer, more genuine.
And honestly, heartbreak changes your psychology slowly.
One day you are crying over every memory. Then one day you suddenly notice you did not think about them for three hours. Then one day you stop checking their profile. Then one day you realize the attachment is fading little by little.
That is how healing actually happens.
Not in one dramatic moment.
Just slowly. Quietly. Painfully. Naturally.
This is not some perfect advice.
Just things that helped me survive it.......
I think one of my biggest flaws is that I become defensive too easily.
Even when someone approaches me with good intentions, I become alert. Guarded. Sometimes distant. I don’t always know why I react that way, but I know it affects the way people interact with me. Some people stop trying altogether. Its not always but sometimes it happens
And the worst part is that I notice it while it’s happening, yet I still struggle to stop it.
It even affects romantic connections. Sometimes someone genuinely tries to know me, and instead of feeling comfortable, I instinctively protect myself as if I’m preparing for something to go wrong.
I know this is something I need to improve. I just wish I understood where this constant defensiveness comes from.
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Sometimes people say we should leave everything to destiny and stop worrying about the future.,.. I try to do that too. But deep inside, I still feel like I’m searching for someone.... Not necessarily in a romantic way. Maybe a friend, maybe a stranger, maybe just a soul I can truly connect with.
Life is unpredictable. We really don’t know what will happen next. Maybe that’s why I keep thinking about this. About finding a person who feels “right” to me..... And I know everyone has their own idea of what perfect means. What feels perfect to me might mean nothing to someone else.
People also say that when you want something too much, it pushes it away. Maybe that’s true. Maybe some people will read this and scroll past it. Maybe someone will actually understand it....
And honestly, this is not only about love or marriage. It feels deeper than that. Human connections are strange and beautiful. Sometimes, coincidences happen, dreams come true, and people meet at the exact right moment. I don’t know how to explain it properly, but I feel like humans carry something more inside them... some energy, some understanding beyond words.
I think real depth is very different from what people show online these days. Being “deep” is not about using heavy words or acting mysterious. Sometimes the simplest sentence can hold the most meaning. Sometimes a small act says everything......There’s already so much chaos in the world. Maybe all of us are searching for peace in some way. And maybe peace is not a place or a person. Maybe it already exists somewhere inside us.
Still, I feel like I’m searching for a soul that understands all this without needing too many explanations. Maybe many of you are searching too, even if you don’t express it like this.
I don’t know. This is just what I feel.