Asvi malayalam, mywayby kalyani, vibe with raveena etc.
Though I don’t follow them it keeps on coming in my feed. Everyday 3-4 new clothes?! I wonder who would be buying all these?!
I was that easy to manage, no drama child growing up. I somehow wanted to please my parents growing up , so i studied hard , did everything they asked me to do etc. But once I became independent, the rebel in me started coming out, and my parents thought I am mentally not okay , that’s why I was rebellious. They told me how much of a good girl i was and it triggered me to the core. They tried to console me when i broke down, and it triggered me more. I called out them mentioning each and every incident i remember, I made them regret it all. Then I moved out and started living alone, taking professional help, and now i am in my mid thirties. I was finally able to zoom out and see things objectively. I am able to accept that my parents are also flawed just like any other human being. May be they never knew any better.
Though I am able to forgive and let go, i always get into the loop of thinking what if i could be the naughty kid and got to do all the fun and childish stuff growing up, i envy people who got to be back benchers and enjoyed their time growing up. Believe it or not, i do not remember me being a child - i remember my childhood, but i always felt like an adult.
Don’t get me wrong, this good girl syndrome somehow made me what society thinks as successful. I am grateful to the life I have now and the financial and emotional independence.
But then there are some days where I again get caught up in the what if thoughts and somehow feel betrayed :)
She knew that it will be a hot and juicy discussion and people would want to know about it! Hence
Dating apps actually are ‘cooler’ versions of matrimonial apps . You swipe based on the looks, income brackets, the punchline that is put in there etc etc . So it obviously becomes transactional. Falling in love is about finding things about the person organically, unfolding the mysteries of each other one by one and it’s like a slow burn. You will be inconvenienced or get uncomfortable with certain aspects of the other person and then the relationship either grows stronger or falls apart- but it’s all organically happening. There is a beauty and depth to it. You may end up with a heart break, but that turns out to be a huge life lesson and a khatta meetha memory forever.
What are your thoughts?
I am a childfree woman, living with my partner ( not married) and living my life in my own terms. Whenever I visit naadu, there will be n number of questions about this and though i show my frustration to them while answering them, it is so draining. I don’t even feel like visiting my home these days.