u/An_Old_Punk

I live alone, and I'm pretty much a hermit. My mom bugs me to send a text each day - I rarely do. It seems like it'd be a chain for me to "check in" every day. I mean, she's in her 70's and I'm in my 50's - so I get why she's always worried. I think it'd be a chain of worry for her every day too, if I ever started this - her, watching for that text. She wants me to check in because my seizures have almost killed me before.

Do any of you have this type of thing going on? How would/do you handle this? What are your thoughts?

I'm just wondering because I'm trying to get an idea of what to watch for. I honestly don't know if I have them. (I am around loud stuff all day at work - so that could just be affecting my hearing.)

I'm guessing I'd fall under the Asexual spectrum.

I can be attracted to people and think they are really cute, but I have no desire to have sex with them. Basically, I don't like the actual act of sex or kissing - it's gross to me. I've always just done it in past relationships because it just felt like something that had to be done/was expected.

I don't mind watching/viewing it in media and porn (yeah, I know - gross person). Kind of like I like the fantasy of sex vs. the reality of sex - if that makes sense. I've been this way for my whole life, and I've always just felt different from "normal" people. It's always been hard to wrap my head around how much people seem to want to 'hook up' or are always in pursuit of sex. Sex has always seemed like so much of an underlying focus for people. I get that it can feel good, but there's very little I like about it in person.

It does take me a long time to want to be in a relationship - I've recently realized it's not a trust thing. It's not a confidence thing. Someone becomes more attractive to me the longer I know them. Superficially, I can think someone can be extremely cute - but I generally don't feel like pursuing anything more. No matter how cute someone is to me, having sex with them would still gross me out.

(I'm straight, if that makes any difference. I don't see how orientation would really matter though.)

Has anyone else done this? I was reading in-depth on my records and I should be dead. Who's had one those holy.... moments?

Edit: I hope this doesn't break the rules.

I had seizures lasting from 6-15 minutes. I had a BP of 142/96. Lots of lesions on front left temporal, and left subcortex.

I haven't had a TC in 10 years. I think the meds are fully in control of me (if that makes sense). Last time my neuro was thinking of putting me on Gabapentin too. I deal with high volumes of drugs every day (pharmacy tech) - Gabapentin sounds like an absolutely horrible drug. 300mg are some of our fastest movers. Why? (Some states are making it a controlled substance.)

Do any of you have experience with the keppra/lamictal/gabapentin coctail? How did it affect you?

I'm just wondering if something like this has happened to anyone else? I saw my neuro about 8 months ago.

He increased my 400mg dose of Lamictal to 600mg, but I've been mistakenly only been taking 500mg for 8 months. I meet with him in a few months. I'm not going to risk the 100mg increase (500mg - 600mg) before I meet with him. If I'm controlled and nothing has changed, does it really matter at this point? If anything, it seems like this mistake might be a good thing - because I'm maintaining on a lower dose.