It’s always the fucking same man. I’m trying to stop and I’ve been doing damn good but then something happens and my first thought is “eat” WTFFF. I’m sick of this shit. FOOD CANT SAVE ME. Food cant make me younger than 27 again or pay the fucking bills. Shits maddening. The crazy part is idk when this even started but I’ve been in hell for almost 10 years battling this.
Second time I’ve posted about my condition and nothing. Not one comment. No one else is going through the same thing? Stuck pee that you have to massage out and increased sensitivity on left side of clit? Someone has to have the same thing.
I started having sex in 2023 and in 2024 I got two utis. I took antibiotics for both and was tested again and it came back negative. Here’s the problem. Ever since then I’ve had a problem emptying my pee all the way and I have to run it out. This problem also Caleb with a sensitive spot on the left side of my clit.
I’ve been living like this since 2024.
Now in 2026 it’s gotten worse.
I can’t masturbate anymore without having a prickly feeling and sometimes electric shock feeling. This happens off and on regularly but the other day it was on the whole time. I took a break from touching myself and then I tired again and the feeling was numb until I cam once. After I can, it was back to normal basically.
I don’t have money to get checked out. I was tested when all this started for sti and std’s and I don’t have any.
I’m at my limit and I can’t live like this anymore.
I’m maxing out my hardship programs so I can save money. My monthly is only 30 dollars, will they give me a hardship ?
Sickkkk offff this shittt. Sick of hearing “I have adhd I can’t do it” FUCK OFF OMG.
I can’t find a job “I don’t want to do that I have adhd”
“I have adhd it’s so bad I can’t sit down and write” but then can play video games for hours. 🤡
Is this mainly about my “bf” ? Yes but I can’t get out of my lease until this time next year so I’m going to shit talk him all
Year.
Idk what drugs I was on when I said I wanted to be with him
. I genuinely feel like a spell has been broken LOL because wtf?
Dudes an actual idiot who uses everything he can to justify not doing anything but the bait min.
I’m telling my therapist today that I want to leave him, finally!
Today is a great day. Only problem is we live together.
Everyone told me not to get with him but I was dumb ass fuck and “gave him a chance” COOKED. 💀
My bf? And I are both “musicians”. I put quotes because he claims to make music but it’s SoundCloud rap music(how ever you feel about that) and he doesn’t want to practice or write anything. He constantly talks down to himself and about himself and claims the reason he doesn’t make music anymore is because he had to sell his laptop but even when he had it, he didn’t make music.
I on the other hand am trying to lock in. I started vocal lessons again, I just got some new gear after busting my ass, but I also don’t have anything positive to say about my own music unfortunately. I’m trying to overcome my negative talk but being with him is really bringing me down. I also feel like he’s jealous of me having “music talent” as he says.
I don’t feel comfortable singing in front of him and it’s causing a problem because when df am I going to sing ?
I don’t have money to break our lease so idk what to do anymore. Get a practice space ? A storage unit? This relationship feels done but unfortunately I still have to live with him so idk what to do.
Has anyone here gone through something similar? Where your partner feels jealous of you ? I am in therapy and will bring this up with my therapist today.
This keeps happening and it’s weird and uncomfortable.
I get on a train and people just start staring at me I literally had a guy sit two seats down from me and stair fully at me the whole ride. I made eye contact and he still was staring. wtf? Shits creepy as hell and I’m sick of it.
Why can’t I just go home or to work without having eyes on me? Does anyone else deal with this?
Okay so this song just seemingly disappeared. I haven’t heard it since 2014-2015.
Back then I would listen to spotify song suggestions and random songs would play.
The song was very similar to combichrist type of music.
Back then I used to listen to a lot of skinny puppy, chem lab, lucid dementia, and noisuf-x .
All I can remember is the lyrics went kinda like this :
You want to something and retry
You want to something way tonight
This is a long shot but I can’t remember anything else. It’s killing me!!!
The guys voice is kinda similar to the guy from wumpscut which I was also listening to at the time a lot ,mainly the song “fuck it”.
Any help would be great!
The human body is supposed to be able to heal itself so wtf?
Should I just never have coffee again? This is my biggest trigger.
Also how df did this start? One day after eating chipotle and eating too much?
My story is literally that in 2020 I used to eat basicallyOMD. I would walk to chipotle, eat my whole meal even though I was stuffed and then walk home.
The problems started in December when I got sick and then Randomly woke up with thick mucus in my throat that was there 24/7 and wouldn’t get out no matter what. I also had shortness of breath and throat burning. I would also wake up and have to cough up a ball of mucus that was yellow or sometimes bloody/ had food in it.
Thats lasted until 2022.
2022-2023 the mucus came and went off and on but everything else stayed the same. Unfortunately I went through a binging problem until 2024 but my symptoms stayed the same.
In 2024 I lost weight to my lowest weight since 2021( I bring this up because it wasn’t weightloss since I also was the same weight in 2021 but the symptoms were way worse then)
For the first time since 2020 I was damn near cured after I went to
The doctor and they said I had low Vitamin D and have my 5000iu. After taking this, my symptoms disappeared basically.
Everything was better until 2025 when I started binging again.
So was it the vitamin D that helped? Because I’ve since taken it and it didn’t help at all. Also 2024 was the first year in a long time I didn’t feel crazy anxious due to losing weight and feeling better about my image.
I say all this to say. WTF? I’m sick of having this shit.
Now a days I’m having burning
Throat, I can’t sing and I’m horse 24/7, BLOATED after one meal, waking up and coughing up the yellow mucus ball, hole in right side of my throat feeling. Same damn symptoms as before.
I’m tired.
Editing because I keep getting told I’ve never done anything to help myself heal which is not true. I’m just not going to take ppi’s when if you do any research they don’t work for LPR. I don’t have gerd which is what ppis are used for.
I’m also not taking anything like raft or anything that bandages the problem up but doesn’t fix it. Taking Gaviscon everyday and staying away from coffee and alcohol for life isn’t “healing” and you’re not “cured” .
What I’m tried:
fasting both water and dry
Vitamin D
Low acid diet
Weight loss
Probiotics and probiotic foods
Dry fasting and Vitamin D were the only things that actually helped.
The low acid diet is impossible for me to stay on only because of coffee. I have to wake up at 5 am everyday, I’m not going without coffee.
The floor is yours please explain yourself. I’m not talking about anyone who’s injured or disabled. Abled body people only. It’s so baffling how slow people walk here compared to the smaller cities I’ve lived in.
The one where she says all they do is smash and that she wants more. In the interlude she’s asking him why he doesn’t hold her hand anymore and he says “here we go”. He didn’t even want to hold her hand he just wanted her there to show off that he had a young girl that did what he said. Sick asf.
Man this case just reminds me of being her age and having older men take advantage of me. It’s so heartbreaking.