u/AnonChikinNugget

I have a rather high pitched voice to begin with and used to be able to get it fairly low, however in 2022 or 23 I got covid and, even though it was a very mild case, it permanently damaged my respiratory system.

Ever since then, I noticed that I'm not only more prone to catching colds and sore throats, but I have difficulties with breathing in every sort of position and situation. The worst part of it? It made it painful to speak. I thought it was normal and I love talking to people so I just sucked it up, but then recently I discovered that talking in a very high pitch pretty much removes that pain.

I've been trying to get used to talking in that very high pitched voice by default but it's pretty tough. My biological family is horrible about the very high pitched voice, I often forget and end up defaulting to my normal voice or deeper, and sometimes people even accuse me of trying to be like the vtuber Ironmouse even though iirc she also speaks in a very high pitch for the same reason I do which is permanent respiratory damage and pain management. One time somebody online even called me a "little girl" even though I'm an adult male.

As it is I already suffer from discrimination for various other disabilities and disorders so I'm pretty stressed at having this on top of all that.

My dad went to the store the other day and, by pure luck, they had ascended heroes in stock! He got me one and said that he also entered a lottery to be able to buy a prismatic evolutions etb! I'm so excited and happy for when he sends them to me and I get to open them! I've been wanting to open these sets for a while now since there's a lot of really pretty and cute cards I want

I'm ftm. I have chest binders which I was able to wear just fine before, but I'm no longer able to as they pretty much hurt immediately after putting them on. As it is they're pretty loose so I feel like going up another size would just make it not fit me anymore. I've tried sports bras but it's the same case and I'm allergic to body tape.

I also plan to get top surgery in the future and just recently heard that there is a post-op binder for that which I'm not sure how I'd handle.

To anybody in AB-CIM who has already taken up AMLANG1 and/or 2, what's the full list of languages to choose from? Benilde site for CIM only lists Spanish, French, Korean, Italian, and FSL directly, but it does say there are also others. I'm really curious and although I'm still pretty far from taking them, I want to start making my decision now since I often get decision paralysis.

I'm somebody who presents very femininely by choice. I prefer skirts and dresses, I sometimes wear makeup, I prefer my hair a certain length, and my voice is very high pitched. I'm aware that these aren't limited to gender, hence I am personally very comfortable in them, but that isn't my problem. My problem is that I want to pass, at least in a way where people around me would immediately refer to me as a boy, sir, gentleman, etc., and I have gotten this at one point when I had cut my hair short in experimentation and was wearing pants. Except neither of those things made me happy. They made me uncomfortable both physically and mentally.

The only medical transition I plan to do is top surgery. HRT isn't for me personally, especially since I'm very happy with my voice and general appearance. That's where the saying "can't have your cake and eat it too" comes in. I feel like I have to decide between passing but I'm not comfortable and being comfortable but not passing.

I know passing isn't necessarily everything, but I just really want to be seen as a boy. I'm not exactly the type to go correcting people either, I'm often scared to do so. Yes, even if they're a friend. In fact I often have friends, specifically those I rarely see/talk to, who frequently forget and misgender me. I don't want to be a bother to anybody and I don't want to cause trouble or seem like I'm entitled, but it does really hurt and doesn't help with my dysphoria in any way.

Sometimes this situation makes me question if I am even really trans or just mirroring others around me even though I do know for a fact that I want to be referred to and seen as a boy. I just feel like I'm the odd one out or that I'm not trying hard enough to reach my goal. I have a lot of transmasc friends and, although they all have different transition goals, all of them at least make an effort to at least look androgynous.

I really want to know if there is any way I could handle this better or if it's a solid choice I have to make.

I personally don't plan on taking HRT as I'm very happy with how I currently sound and look (save for really needing top surgery), but sometimes I find myself really wanting to sound like some cover artists I enjoy listening to like Sou and Will Stetson. Thing is I don't want to potentially permanently change my voice by taking HRT just to know.

Hey everybody! Now that the term is over and grades are locked into BESTAR, I feel that I'm now safe to post an update regarding my last post.

For those who don't know, tldr a prof of my from the 2nd term was openly transphobic and attempted to fail me for it as well as would target me in class.

Following the comments on said post, I did report him however I never received an update on that, but during grade consultation I was able to contest the grades. Thankfully the attendance was fixed and my works and quizzes were graded "properly". I say that in quotes because I still ended up with a 2.5, a grade that I don't feel is quite right, but I still passed and it's enough to keep both the scholarship office and my biological parents quiet, so I didn't bother testing my luck anymore.

Needless to say, for those who still have to take their IETHICS and/or any theology classes, BEWARE of Sir Aldino Gonzales, especially if you are openly trans! Not sure how he feels about others in the LGBTQ+ community, but he has expressed his opinions on trans individuals.

Thank you to everybody who supported me in my last post and good luck! <33