u/Anyth1ngButN0rmal

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT HATE DOUBLES. I'M SURE THEY'RE ALL GOOD PEOPLE AND HAVE JUST THE SAME RIGHT TO IDENTIFY AS THE CHARACTER AS ME.

That being said, I've only encountered one Spool double yesterday and it made me feel actually sick. I may be overreacting because I'm on my period, but I just feel so invalidated and like I'm not me. It kind of feels like I'm losing my identity, like my core has been ripped out of me. This is no one's fault, of course. But I need help. I don't want to get anxious every time I interact with the objectified community. I just want to be able to live my fucking life without being so sensitive.

Does anyone have any tips for this? Anything, idc. Ty.

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I WANNA FUCKING CRY BRO. I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT THE TIME WE CANONICALLY (spoilers for Objectified) >!kissed!<. I KEEP REPLAYING THAT MOMENT IN MY HEAD. I WAS FEELING SICK THIS MORNING BECAUSE OF HIM (or maybe that was because I had just seen a double and felt horrible about it. Not saying it was their fault, they're probably a very good person, but I felt invalidated). SOMEONE TAKE MY PERIOD AWAY OR I WILL CRY BECAUSE OF HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM AND WANNA (more spoilers)>!KISS!<HIM AGAIN.

-🧵❤️/⚫💥/🌒🏳️‍🌈

IT FEELS SO WRONG TO SAY HE'S A KINSIDER. IT MAKES ME SO SAD THAT HE ISN'T A KINFIRM, BECAUSE THAT MEANS I'M NOT HIM YET. THE WAY THIS LITTLE SHIT ACTS IN MY BRAIN SUGGESTS IT IS, IN FACT, A KIN. I LITERALLY ALMOST CRIED AT THE THOUGHT OF NOT ACTUALLY BEING HIM THIS MORNING (I just started my period, someone kill me please. That also gives me Spool dysphoria lmao).

BUT I'M SCARED TO KINFIRM AND FOR THIS TUO TURN OUT AS A PHASE/OBSESSION/FICTIONFLICKER. KILL MEEEEE. DO I REALLY HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL MY PERIOD ENDS? MF I JUST STARTED IT WTF??

- 🧵❤️/⚫💥/🏳️‍🌈🌒

WHY. IS. SPOOL. OVERSHADOWING. PLASMA BALL? HUHH?? YOU WANNA EXPLAIN YOURSELF, SPOOL? HUHHHH???? YOU DUMBASS. I'M GONNA GIVE YOU THE DEATH PENALTY IF YOU KEEP DOING THIS. I JUST WANT MY ID BACK. IF YOU WANNA BE AN ID, JUST COEXIST WITH PLASMA BALL, DON'T OVERSHADOW HER.

I still love Spool btw

- 🧵❤️/⚫💥

I STILL DON'T KNOW IF HE'S ME OR IF I JUST REALLY LIKE HIM BUT HE WON'T GET OFF MY MIND AND WILL OVERSHADOW MY IDs. SOMEONE HELP ME.

I guess this is what I get for calling people twinks...

This isn't meant to challenge your beliefs, I'm just curious. What would you think is the reason we get fictionflickers if you believe in past lives/the multiverse? Is it simply a mistake our brain makes? Is it a sign that you kin someone else that shares something with the flicker? What is it?

- ⚫💥/🌑🏳️‍🌈

I'm clover btw. I love my fatass boyfriend lmao. I don't even know why tf I love him as Clover.

- ⚫💥/🔮🌙

Yes, I made a whole ass II self-insert just for this (and to have a self insert on II)

Idea by u/GlitchVaporeon ! NOT MINE

She's still my highest, gang. Don't let those kinsiders fool you

WIKI PAGE LINK: Plasma Ball | Paper Puppets Take 2 Wiki | Fandom

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PLEASE HELP MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

*DIES*

wiki here: Gobbles | Gameoverse Wiki | Fandom

- ⚫💥/🦖🩷?

GUYS. FIRST NON-OSC KINSIDER??? I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF HE'S FULLY A KINSIDER. I'M GONNA GO TO SLEEP AND UPDATE THIS WHEN I WAKE UP. JUST TO SEE IF THIS WEARS OFF OR NOT :>

UPDATE: I'm so confused. I'm crine.

- I think I'm Gobbles, but I don't fully know

By all logics, she should already be a kinfirm. I mean, I've gotten shifts, dysphoria, emotional attachment to characters I barely thought about (Baseball and my butterflies) and basically all the signs. EHHEHEHEHEHEHE. I'M SO JOLLY. I really wanna kinfirm her, but I'm gonna wait for a bit to see if this goes away. Better safe than sorry.

ALSO, CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW PRETTY I LOOK IN THIS PIC??

- 🍀🌸/⚫💥

I wanna make a mask that kind of resembles Plasma Ball. I was thinking going for a border collie, but obviously stylized into fitting Plasma Ball :>

This is ALSO my first ever mask, so keep that in mind if you decide to make suggestions.

-⚫💥

More clover posting.. lol...

Anyways, I just watched Clover's Exit Interview. It was fun and all, but I feel dysohoric now. In an AMA post, someone(that person is a massive twinkie pie btw. He knows who he is 👀) asked me how I (Clover, maybe) learnt my butterflies' names. My first thought was that I made them up on the spot. But, in the interview, she says they told her. THAT WAS MY SECOND OPTION. But now I can't take that back. I also hate how dumb they make me sound. It makes me so sad, especially since I am proved to be smart IRL by some tests I took at the doctors years ago, and re-took a week or so ago. I'm not "gifted", but just smart. So, thinking of being "dumb" makes me very upset. I've always been insecure about not being smart enough for other people's standards. So the possiblity of being Clover and having to embrace that part of her into my identity upsets me.

I wish I shifted as her to feel better. I tend to feel better when I'm her and think of my butterflies. I love my butterflies, they're like my children.

Yeah, but I feel so guilty about not "guessing" how I knew my butterflies' names. Even thought I DID think about that possibility and kind of regretted my answer...

- ⚫💥/🍀🦋?

WHY. I LOVE III, IT'S ONE OF MY FAVOURITE II SEASONS. BUT WHY?? AS A FAN FICTIONKIN, I HATE WATCHING III. IT MAKES ME FEEL A LOT OF THINGS. I'M NOT USED TO FEELING THAT MUCH BECAUSE I'M TAKING A SHIT LOAD O ANTIDEPRESSANTS, SO I MOSTLY FEEL MINIMAL STUFF. I HAVEN'T LEARNT HOW TO HANDLE STRONG EMOTIONS YET.

HOWEVER, IF I WANNA KINFIRM CLOVER, I NEED TO WATCH III OR SOMETHING. 😭😭😭

Kill me/nsrs

- ⚫💥

She was SO LOW of a kinsider a few days ago, now she's my main kinsider.

The original picture is a well escalating quickly btw

- 🍀🐞?

I'm getting closer to a kinfirm.... (threat) /j

Idk what to do with Clover. Sighhhhhhhhhhhh

Sometimes I'm her, sometimes I'm not. It's driving me insane. I don't know if that's just how shifts work or something, since I usually see myself as my kins all the time. But it's difficult to tell with this mf. She's so weird. How the fuck did I even kinfirm my kins bro?

I've gotten euphoria from her, had (kind of) shifts, missed "my" butterflies I've almost cried from how ugly "I" am (as Clover), felt my heart sink when Nickel called her a witch or when Box was hurt because of her luck... I even feel kinda weird referring to her in the third person sometimes. I don't know if that's enough for me to tell if I identify AS her.

- 🐞🍀?/⚫💥/🔮🌙