u/AppropriateBuddy2596

My mom loves me. At least, I'd hope so.

I don't think she likes me and I was close to making her admit it once except she doesn't get the point. A good part of how insecure I am can be attributed to the lady and she's very hypocritical

I can't have a conversation with my mom without her mentioning my weight, and how to lose weight or how chubby my cheeks are. I fucking hate it. I feel disgusting when I notice people's features because it feels like I'm judging them which is the last type of person I want to be

My mum would tell me she hates my body and hopes I lose weight. In the same sentence, will say Idk how beautiful I am and I should let strangers take pictures of me by just asking. So that what? They can tell me how disgusting I look too? And it's ALWAYS about weight tp the point that I've thought of remaining chubby just to piss her off but my self confidence of already ruined and that'd only impact it worse. She's been telling me I'm fat af since I was 70kg and now I'm in the 80s. Then she had the audacity to say, I wish you could go back to your OG weight. GIRL, FUCK YOU. GOSH, I WISH I COULD JUST SAY THAT

And I look at old pics of myself and cry because I was lanky af lol. And I remember feeling in that moment that if I coukd just lose some weight, maybe once day I wouldn't hate myself. Meanwhile, I wasn't even an adukt yet. Till date, she still does this shit and now Ik so much about weight loss that it is probably a core part of who I am now.

She'd shame me if I wear tight clothes and point out a million times that I'm adding and need to shed some pounds. I wore baggy jeans and a top to hide my body and she told me I was wearing them too much (only twice at the time) and said I shouldn't wear them anymore. I ask why and she mumbles about it making me look fat. I repeat what she said and she grimaces saying yes, looking relieved like I GET her.

She'd get angry at my time management because I hate rushing and I don't see what we're rushing towards. Our deaths? What is so urgent that y'all cannot calm down and just live? And if I don't do something her, I'm an irresponsible twat. I just hate living with my parents

Oh goodie. Gosh, I love a good rant so buckle up for some proper BS guys!

As any natural person, I have a complicated relationship with my parents. I love them. I wish they live long and happy. I hope they interfere as little as possible in my life in the near future. Why you ask?

My dad is a rather well off person but he can be dreadfully annoying. He has some shit ideologies I can't stand and is as busy as a bee can be. Despite being a business owner, he doesn't see it fit to put time aside for his family like that and complains when we don't need to see him for 4 days despite living in the same house. He has this fantasy of being abandoned as an old man whose children don't appreciate him enough despite all they do. And I'm so tired of trying to appease it rather than address the real problem, which is his ego. Nobody abandons their loving and caring father just because. Anyways, he uses this to justify why he has to make money for himself.

Speaking of his ego, he can be incredibly rude to his workers at times. He does reward them handsomely but like I said, he's the type to go into a meeting with them and say something like "Your attire looks like you bought it at a thrift. Please remove that disgusting thing of you" or "Yk (employee), ask him. We're no longer as close as we used to be because he's redundant" Not saying I'm a saint but I'm not sure that's how I'd like to be spoken to as an employee. He tends to get angry easily when things don't go his way. Like me saying I have a puercing headache when he wants me to follow him to work for no reason or say he hates my work ethic (I don't work??)

His ego can be so irritating in a way that it feels like lying to me. I'm an engineering major and he's ask me about an alternator of a car randomly and get angry if I don't know the answer. In the same breath, he'd say it's okay not to know stuff. Well, clearly not when you're huffing and puffing down my neck.

We're religious and he'd also get angry if he doesn't hear us shouting to pray and screams at my 8 year old sis often because she just looks into space while we pray. I feel bad but there's nothing I can do for ber in that moment or I could get the heat of it too.

Oops. Well, I'll talk about my mom in another rant. Lemme know if y'all have similar thoughts about your parents

So I've been in Manc for a year and haven't made any worthwhile friends. It was a hprrid experience. However, I cannot blame the city as it is really a "too good to be true" city

I want to know how people make friends and find experiences because I deem myself terrible at it. In a way, I do also blame myself (I don't have the best self image so I rarely go out) and obvi that impacted my experience altogether. Add a sprinkle of depression to that and I feel like I wasted a year.

Starting with my accommodation (I kinda believe the best things happen to you if you just put yourself in the right place at the right time), I'll be living somewhat in the middle of Victoria Park and City Centre. I know everyone says Fallow is the best but my accom for next year is truly glorious that nothing else could compare for me. Is socialization is City Centre that bad? Trying to give myself reasons I should stick with it or not😭

Idk if my MFT just hates me but I haven't figured how to sign up for a month. I've downloaded the app and tried signing up but it literally doesn't load

Nothing's wrong with my network and I can't call for an access code because I went on holiday where the exchange rate would just be a waste if I do call.

Does anyone have similar issues or know what to do?

Anyone know how long reproductive panel results take? I received my standard hormone panels a while ago and I wanted to know if it's possible for the NHS to release test results seperately

Is it possible to progress without explicitly passing? I just wrote an exam and the superunit is belongs too is basically cooked for me. The % required to pass as average is 60%. I keep adding shit up and all I have is 57 tops nor matter what I do. Would they overlook it if I full all the other criterias needed to progress?

Course 1 - 58
Course 2 - Messed up because they changed the exam format and I didn't recognize it (44)
Course 3 - Fair/Alright like 60 to 65