New relationship after divorce
**TL;DR;** : I got divorced, so far I haven't been in love or particularly attracted to any of my exes in the beginning of the relationship. Now I want that, but it seems like I don't have the manual everyone else seems to have. What should I do to find a man who would want to take care of me the way I always care for others?
I 29F got divorced 31M after 5 years of relationship (2 of them were the marriage) and I am now feeling like I must have missed some kind of manual everyone else seems to have. How does one find a relationship in their early 30s? I want to actually move from Czechia to Ireland (hopefully in two years) so I joined Hinge and I explicitly said what my plan is and that I am looking for a life partner. Every previous man I dated was from work or school and I never felt being in love with them at the beginning. I basically said yes every time someone was interested and then tried to make it work unless they decided I was no longer interesting enough (a direct reason for one of the breakups).
Now I want to actually be in love and be at least a bit attracted to my partner and also I wish for them to not just want my body and the convenience of my cooking and cleaning, but also to be interested in who I am. I also wish to be comforted and addressed with soft pet names, but that seems like too much to ask.
Can you give me some advice? I feel very lost.