u/Artistic_Context_906

This might be a stupid post, but I recently fixed my broken SIXAXIS controller and now I want to push the vibration to its limits.

Feel free to recommend even the strangest games my console can sail the seas, if you catch my drift.

EDIT: holy moly! I just realized that this post sounds extremely....let's say weird lol, I just want to test the motors if I fixed them, I don't to want to...well anyway you get it. 🤣

Look it's not a big deal but I have a thing, read the following ⬇️

Ever since I gained consciousness as a child I was deeply sad for no reason, there were happy times sure, but it's like my feelings/soul whatever you call it are tethered elsewhere.

And I always feel like I wasn't supposed to be here, and no I don't want to self delete myself, never wanted and never will, and the reason I won't childish as it may is that there is so much cool stuff I want to experience like all the future games/movies but anyways.

There's this deep feeling of not belonging here that persists even when I stop laughing or stop having fun, like I was meant for a different time, place, or world...I must sound crazy I know but this is how I feel.

If I had to sum up this feeling with a sentence it would be "why am I here? And not where i came from" but there is no "place I came from" I dunno maybe I'm overthinking things, or i don't have the capacity to understand my feelings and it leads me to weird thoughts and ideas.

Does anyone else feel this way? Or am I cursed to carry this burden of unknown sad feeling for ever with no answer in sight?

I'm not insane, although that's what an insane person would say lol.

This isn't me trolling, genuinely curious because I never met a German person and I'm curious if they do that.

Is it just me?

Like for example, I always tell myself, 'Okay, let’s do a proper low-chaos run,' but then I get bored and end up freestyling into a stealth high-chaos run, and have a blast.

But there’s always a bit of guilt at the end…