u/Asgerdobastapasta

Hallo, servus!

I'll be landing for the first time in Frankfurt am Main, my first time in Germany! Please give ideas to make the best use of these hours and any precautions I need to take🙏🏻

M23

Been with this big town girl for almost 2 years now. She's all great and cute of a girlfriend and on the top, loyal. I know the loyalty factor as a fact but haven't kinda really got it in my system.

She's an year senior to me and I'm still in my masters when she's got a job at the embassy and there's a routine to her life now which makes her unwillingly ignore me throughout the day and only be available to call/meet in the evening.

Out routine until now was to meet everyday and spend a great deal of time with each other eating, sleeping studying and sharing the same space.

At her workplace, of course there are people she hate and she love. That's all normal but when that's blended with her unavailability for the most of the day and then her day filled with all the office tea and a guy bringing beers for her and maybe taking a stand for her against an exploitative boss, I feel kinda uneasy. I've always wanted to do everything for her and was doing it pretty much till she was living with me all day. I barely have anything new to tell her at the end of the day.

Now, all of a sudden there are others and workplace stories to spill at the end of the day. She just casually also mentioned that she absolutely lovedddd a guy for taking a stand for her and that he later got her a beer (she doesn't usually like beers).

I know I'm a little too free these days in the summer vacations. I just wanna make her feel the way she does to me. I soon have a trip to make to Europe, on a scholarship and I love having beers and yk, being there for my friends. However, I've been stealing time from my friends when high or really enjoying together to call her for a while so she doesn't feel bad but the same has almost never been reciprocated. Only when she's not enjoying the company does she care enough to call me coz she was feeling bored or not really at place with the company.

This time, I wish to give it all to myself. Prioritise myself and have the entertainment and fun to just tell her that I'm with my friends, high, with girls and all and that I can't really call her rn and would call her only later. I just want her to feel really bad about this.

I although love to call her and tell her things. I understand this can't be reciprocated especially when she's at work. But I won't be disappointing my friends anymore by stealing time to call her. I've been unfair to my friends.

She doesn't seem to understand any of this. I'm shy to confront this and of course here, I think I'm the one at fault. I hate confessing that her talking so much about her colleagues and work and ignoring me all day because of it kinda makes me feel bitter about her. I just wanna crush her emotions badly sometimes and I've done so, regretted that later.

I don't know what devil has gotten into me.

And feel free to drop what brand of dog food do you find most reliable and economical for a GSD.

Thank you!