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Anything can be a trigger if you're traumatized enough, I guess?!
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Anything can be a trigger if you're traumatized enough, I guess?!

I'm happy for loved children but I want mommy too damn

u/Background_Active_36 — 17 days ago
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Being left alone is all I need

I miss being ignored by men back when I was a kid and looked like a boy. 🙃 Existing in whatever form I am would be nice.

u/Background_Active_36 — 1 month ago
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I've read the book. It really hits home.

I wish my little me knew that trying to please my parents won't make them love me.💔 That'd made me abandon myself for nothing instead.

There's also a part 2 (kinda) about how to deal with emotionally immature people.

u/Background_Active_36 — 1 month ago
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In a mood to tell my caretakers to fuck off (I cut them off, but still)

They never knew me at all. I only had a chance to be myself once I got away from them. It's so painful, knowing I'll never get to have a normal family. Not perfect, normal would be enough. As peaceful the quiet is, I miss being embraced by a safe person. I miss knowing I am the most special person to someone. Summer is especially hard, with all the people outside having fun. I have no close friends. My family's useless. I thank all Gods for my therapist, but... You know.

I'm staying strong out there *cries*

u/Background_Active_36 — 2 months ago
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The birthday blues

I'm having a birthday in a few days.

I've never had proper celebration. No birthday party, cake, most of the time not a single gift.

My birth giver mostly ignored that day altogether. My father would sometimes give me random stuff, it seemed like he found things in his office to gift me. On my 13th birthday, he woke me up, wished me and gave me a single letter stamp. The rest of the day was ordinary. I cried, and not from joy. But there were years I didn't get anything at all, and I guess I remember this in particular, because this was almost worse. First, the thrill that he remembered, and then the disappointment.

At my work, colleagues usually celebrate others' birthday. I absolutely didn't want to get through that, so I told them I didn't want any sort of celebration. I get it's supposed to be a nice gesture, but to me, it's just depressing, because they don't know me, and despite that, they'd get me a flower and chocolates, which is more than my parents ever did...

So, I'm taking a day off for my birthday. I wish I knew what it's like, to have close ones who'd throw a birthday party.

I asked my therapist to wish me a happy birthday, and she agreed, so that's what I'm looking forward to. But while I'm eternally grateful to have her, I'm also anxious.

I don't know why this year hits so hard. I used to be able to ignore my birthday, just like my parents did. But now, I'm craving to be celebrated, to be seen by loved ones (that I don't have).

I guess that's part of healing – grieving?

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u/Background_Active_36 — 2 months ago
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Is it possible to have ADHD and eat well? Cuz

Spending ridiculous amount of money on food because my brain won't allow me to eat like a normal person. Letting food go bad because I don't feel like eating it anymore is just one of *many* everyday inconveniences.

u/Background_Active_36 — 3 months ago
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Trauma + unsafe relationships = holycrapmakeitstop disorder™

I've spent so much time trying to avoid the relational wound, just talking about what happened, while it was glaringly obvious that the relationships were what fucked me up so much in the first place. I didn't want to see that, did I.

Man, I hate how impossibly complicated my approach regarding other people is. It's hard to see through my past wounds. How can I believe there are any good people? I simply can't. It's safer to assume everyone is dangerous. I've had hard times trusting my therapist. It's getting better though, luckily. The rest of the world, however...

u/Background_Active_36 — 3 months ago
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Looking back, I think I these "glimpses of love" saved me

Sure, they might have liked me just because I was a good child, but at least they liked me, right? The attention was essential to my being. I can't imagine surviving being a "naughty child" at school. I needed my teachers' love, since I wouldn't get **anything** at home

u/Background_Active_36 — 3 months ago