Is this a breakthrough, or am I just really high?
Sloth is the "deadly sin" that I am guilty of. I have STRUGGLED with motivation my whole life. It's just so difficult to get out of the house or "do the thing". It's the ADHD symptom that hits me hardest, or at least most often.
So, I was watching random YouTube videos and watched one on the 7 demon princes of hell. The one called Belphegor is the one that's associated with sloth.
This demon is interesting because he is an innovator who helps people with inventions that make life easy and make the patent holder rich, which culminates in a slothful existence, I guess?
From there, I was looking up the meaning and origin of sloth. The word that comes up is "indolence". Now THIS is where it gets interesting: indolence has its roots in Latin which means "freedom from pain". Whoa. Not "lazy", but freedom from PAIN.
Then I saw this: "indolence means the disposition to avoid trouble. Love of ease."
So THIS is how we are "lazy"! We are literally trying to avoid getting into trouble and avoid painful situations! Does any of this feel familiar to anyone?
Ugh. I'm going to be addressing this with my therapist!