Ang hirap kasi, Idk what to do. My friends and I are going to have a sleepover. Syempre ang hirap naman mag-English the entire time, tsaka ayoko rin, nakakamiss na mag-Tagalog eh. haha.
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At the same time, ayoko naman ma-OP sya kung sya lang di nakakaintindi sa mga usapan. Di ko nman pwede itranslate ung buong mag hapon haha
FYI, I'm a 30yo Filipino male. Drinking has always been part of family gatherings but I never got used to it. I was never pressured by my family and I never felt peer pressure from my friends.
Whenever I'm at a party it just feels like survival until it's time to go home. I'm so incredibly bored.
I asked Gemini about this and it made one very good point:
The "Outsider" Effect: Watching others enjoy things you find boring or unpleasant can create a sense of alienation, which makes the experience feel even more negative than if you were just home alone.
Yep, that's very me.
Whenever I'm at a party I just can't help but fantasize myself painting or gaming instead. Or even just doing nothing on my comfy bed.
Edit: Some people comment "Just don't attend to parties". Well, there are some parties that I'm obligated to attend to, declining can be seen as rude.
Yung partner ko may depression. We're a gay couple. Laki ako sa hirap, sya laki dito sa Europe, comfortable and pampered.
Di ko lang kasi gets, I mean gets ko na depression is an inability of the brain to process/produce happy chemicals. But still, I can't help but wonder, is it because of his upbringing?
Kasi ako, laki ako sa hirap. So mababaw lang kaligayahan ko. Like chocolate lang napapasaya na ako. Simpleng masarap na ulam, (like most of us Filipinos) napapasaya na tayo, kasi food is life tayong mga Pinoy (as far as I know).
Pero sa kanya kasi normal lang lahat ng yun. I mean kung ako kasi ang nasa buhay nya, I'll be so content and happy kasi he has my dream life. High paying remote job, nice house, na merong gaming room with huge TV. Wala syang real problems. Samantalang ako, solo child ng parents na walang pension. Nabankrupt ako nung last time na nastroke si papa.
I'm wondering lang, is it because he has all of these all his life, na ang taas tuloy ng bar ng things that make him happy? And nothing makes him happy anymore?
If you're in a similar situation as mine, how do you deal with it? Kasi minsan feeling ko ako dapat ang depressed tas ganyan sya.
I had to quit nursing because I can't see myself doing this for 30+ more years. Parang mas gusto ko na lang mamatay. So I had to try switching.
I took a lot of career tests and Software Engineering kept coming on top. I also really think I'd love remote work. Also Software Engineers are paid way higher than nurses here. Plus di na ko matatalsikan ng kung anu-anong body fluids at di na rin masisigawan ng basically everyone in the workplace.
I feel like it's more of an IT support role than Computer Science?
https://carson-mcdowell.com/careers/it-assistant -computing-systems
I feel like it's more of an IT support role than Computer Science?
https://carson-mcdowell.com/careers/it-assistant-computing-systems
I think I'll hate software engineering less because I'll be working from home or will be hybrid, I won't get splashed with bodily fluids anymore, I won't get yelled at regularly anymore, and here where I live, software engineers are paid a lot higher than nurses. But yeah I just hate spending hours of my life at work but if I had to do it, I think I wouldn't mind software engineering that much.
I think I'll hate software engineering less because I'll be working from home or will be hybrid, I won't get splashed with bodily fluids anymore, I won't get yelled at regularly anymore, and here where I live, software engineers are paid a lot higher than nurses. But yeah I just hate spending hours of my life at work but if I had to do it, I think I wouldn't mind software engineering that much.
I quit nursing after 5 years working in Ireland. Took up a degree apprenticeship in Computer Science. I absolutely hate being a nurse and I can't see myself doing it until retirement.