Just turned 23. Put on a waitlist by Planned Parenthood. Was going to be able to start DIY July/August but I got into a car accident and had to put all the money I had saved for supplies towards the car to fix it
Now I’m back at square one
I’m officially done, I can’t do this anymore everyday is just more wasted time so what’s the point anymore
Just turned 23. Put on a waitlist by Planned Parenthood. Was going to be able to start DIY July/August but I got into a car accident and had to put all the money I had saved for supplies towards the car to fix it
Now I’m back at square one
I’m officially done, I can’t do this anymore everyday is just more wasted time so what’s the point anymore
I’ve recently decided to try and do DIY however the one link I was able to find for a website left me terribly confused. Is there someone who could walk me through ordering from a website or even just explaining how they work?
I’ve known I was trans for about 5 years now. When am I going to get to start HRT? I have no clue. I’ve floated the idea of DIY but my fiance is super paranoid and says he won’t let me do it.
It’s come to a point where it’s affecting my everyday life. I barely eat, I hardly sleep. When I’m not working I’m rotting in my bed, depressed, incredibly angry hitting myself and throwing things and sobbing my eyes out.
Nothing helps. And to top it all off my fiance has been on T for 5 years. Has the voice changes, has more facial hair then he knows what to do with and has gotten all the support from his family.
We are long distance and I had to close my phone because I kept looking at pictures of him, of him having everything I want and it was making me jealous and angry and made me feel like I hate him.
I’m 23 and he’s 22. If I don’t start HRT soon I will lose so much time to grow into the man I want to be and it’s just not fair at all I don’t know what to do
I’ve known I was trans for about 5 years now. When am I going to get to start HRT? I have no clue. I’ve floated the idea of DIY but my fiance is super paranoid and says he won’t let me do it.
It’s come to a point where it’s affecting my everyday life. I barely eat, I hardly sleep. When I’m not working I’m rotting in my bed, depressed, incredibly angry hitting myself and throwing things and sobbing my eyes out.
Nothing helps. And to top it all off my fiance has been on T for 5 years. Has the voice changes, has more facial hair then he knows what to do with and has gotten all the support from his family.
We are long distance and I had to close my phone because I kept looking at pictures of him, of him having everything I want and it was making me jealous and angry and made me feel like I hate him.
I’m 23 and he’s 22. If I don’t start HRT soon I will lose so much time to grow into the man I want to be and it’s just not fair at all I don’t know what to do
I’ve known I was trans for about 5 years now. When am I going to get to start HRT? I have no clue. I’ve floated the idea of DIY but my fiance is super paranoid and says he won’t let me do it.
It’s come to a point where it’s affecting my everyday life. I barely eat, I hardly sleep. When I’m not working I’m rotting in my bed, depressed, incredibly angry hitting myself and throwing things and sobbing my eyes out.
Nothing helps. And to top it all off my fiance has been on T for 5 years. Has the voice changes, has more facial hair then he knows what to do with and has gotten all the support from his family.
We are long distance and I had to close my phone because I kept looking at pictures of him, of him having everything I want and it was making me jealous and angry and made me feel like I hate him.
I’m 23 and he’s 22. If I don’t start HRT soon I will lose so much time to grow into the man I want to be and it’s just not fair at all I don’t know what to do
In November of last year my car caught fire and I had no money to buy a new one, I was forced to finance
A couple of days ago I was involved in an accident and the car was declared totaled. I lacked gap insurance and the car is only worth about 4k leaving me with 10k still being owed on the loan and no car to help me work to make that happen
I live alone and was doing delivery and commuting jobs on top of my regular job in order to pay it off. My work commute is 60 miles round trip and if I am not able to pay the money back soon and get into a new car I will be homeless
Anything helps <3
Because I literally cannot
I cannot look at or interact with men who are already on hormones or who have medically/begun medically transitioning because it fills me with so much jealousy I get angry and it makes me rage and hate them
My fiance who I’ve been with for 4 years has been on T for about 6. (We are currently long distance. He’s in Canada I’m in NM) He mostly passes, has the voice, the hair, everything. I get angry when he tells me something as simple as telling me he did his shot.
I’ve known I was trans pretty much the entire time we’ve been together and in earlier years I told myself “it’ll happen eventually don’t stress about it, you can get on hormones when you move to Canada”
That is no longer the case now. Things have gotten bad and my mental health and overall well being is in shambles. I try and talk as little as possible everyday even while alone because I cannot stand the sound of my own voice. Same thing goes for looking at myself in any reflective surface. I genuinely hate everything about myself
I am never in a good mood, I feel so angry, bitter and depressed 24/7 and it’s only getting worse. If I cannot get on hormones soon I am scared of what may happen.
How do you deal with not being on hormones and not knowing when you’re going to be able to start?
I am 23 FTM and have no money. I work 3 jobs to pay the bills and pay off debt. I can’t afford a gender therapist, I was rejected for Medicaid etc etc I have glass bones and paper skin
I’ve heard about DIY HRT but even that seems so expensive how do I pay for this? I have never once been on T and my mental health is pretty much non existent I’m sick of covering my mirrors and bathing blindfolded
I need to get on hormones very soon
My partner (also ftm) has been on T for 5 years. I don’t even feel like I should even be around him. He’s everything I want to be and I still look and sound like a little girl. He still gets deadnamed and misgendered too which terrifies me because I’m not even on T yet and I just turned 23 so how long do I have to look forward to that?
I feel like my life is already over, he doesn’t really understand what I’m going through because his family was really supportive and let him go on testosterone and supported him and validate his identity
I don’t know any other trans men, I can’t talk to ones who are already on testosterone because it just makes me feel worse. He tells me I just need to be patient because I can’t afford testosterone and it’ll happen one day but I don’t want it to be one day I want it to be now
I can’t speak because my voice makes me want to put a gun in my mouth, I live completely in the dark because I cannot look at my own body. He tells me I’m handsome and he loves me but I wish I was dead.
I literally have panic attacks thinking about not being on testosterone for another year, god forbid when I’m in my thirties because atp there is no point my life is already half over