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I toh already am and it’s been an eye-opening experience for me. She’s hating my kind not me.. i’ve done things but pretty self-aware of it and that’s what she loves about me too.

Wedding is on 13th of September at Wedding lock, Zirakpur.

The owner is telling us to buy the liqour from special liqour stores only as he’s being greedy for commission.

Teacher’s single carton is for 21K in those thekas

Tonight, I was walking with a girl I’ve been seeing. Recently, we started holding hands and giving each other little kisses on the cheek, haha. But tonight, she suddenly asked me, “Why are your hands shaking?”

And honestly, I don’t know how to explain what I felt in that moment.

I’ve had shaky hands since I was a kid. I’ve never actually seen a neurologist or been diagnosed with Essential Tremor, so I don’t even know what the exact reason is. But I remember noticing it around 6th grade, when my friends started making fun of me.. calling me names like “vibrator,” “nashedi,” and all sorts of other things.

The weird part is, I was never a weak kid. I was physically strong, played multiple sports, and performed really well. But constantly being questioned about my hands and having people make assumptions about me took a mental toll.

It’s also something that has affected my everyday life in ways people probably don’t realise. I avoid taking selfies in public or even taking pictures with my family because my hands shake so visibly that I’m scared someone will notice or make a comment. Even something as simple as shaking hands with someone can make me anxious because I know there’s a good chance they’ll feel it and ask me about it.

College wasn’t much different. The jokes continued. People would ask if I was a drug addict or if I drank and smoked a lot. Eventually, I did start smoking and drinking occasionally, but the assumptions people made about me were never the reality.

Tonight, when she asked me about my hands, all those old memories suddenly came rushing back. I just told her I was tired from the gym and work.

I don’t know why this still affects me so much after all these years. Maybe it’s because I’ve spent so much of my life trying to hide something I never chose to have.

It’s not just the shaking anymore. It’s the embarrassment, the overthinking, the fear of being noticed, and the way it has slowly affected my confidence and mental health.

I guess I just wanted to put this somewhere. Maybe some of you have experienced something similar.

Went for an early morning bike ride to the green belt in MDC Sec 4 near Dolphin Chowk for a quick smoke, and ended up seeing something I genuinely can’t process.

A guy was hanging from a tree. Police had just arrived and were about to take the body down.

Asked a local nearby and he said the man worked as a security guard, had a fight at home, and had a small baby too (no idea how true that part is, just what I was told).

The guy looked fit, healthy, well-built… which somehow made it even more shocking. Looked like it happened early in the morning. Still feeling weird after seeing that. Anyone else know what happened?

Yesterday night I took Magnesium Glycinate Complex 250mg for the first time before sleeping around 12 AM. I woke up at 2 AM after very weird, vivid, almost suffocating dreams and couldn’t fall back asleep. Since then, I basically haven’t slept.

This morning, I took Methylcobalamin 1500 mcg on an empty stomach for the first time, and after breakfast I had Vitamin D3 (Cholecalciferol) for the first time too (weekly dose). Tonight after dinner, I took my magnesium again.

The strange part is that despite almost no sleep, a very busy day, and a lot of travel, I don’t feel sleepy at all and barely feel tired. I feel oddly awake or “wired.”

Has anyone experienced this after starting magnesium glycinate, methylcobalamin (B12), or Vitamin D3? Could any of these be causing the vivid dreams, waking up suddenly, or insomnia? Just trying to understand if this is normal when starting these supplements or if I should be concerned.