u/Beginning_Poem_3333

I started working at a new cfa, so I have been there as long as our cfa has been, which has been about 5-6 months now. There are the ups and downs with that on its own, which is a complete different story.

I feel like I am putting my whole soul into the job. I’m working on average like 50 hours a week. I stay almost everyday, and I also am an opener so I’m there as early as possible. Everyone seems to be being promoted around me, despite being told I have been doing an excellent job, and at first this was all that was really bugging me, especially because i’m making 12/h and no matter how much overtime I do i’m still not making much 😔

Lately though, I have been being made fun of, teased behind my back, my coworkers have a nickname for me I’m not supposed to know about. I was super close with someone like i’d fully call them my best friend, and randomly they seem to despise me and I have no idea what was said or what even happened between us and it’s making me so beyond depressed.

Im not able to sleep anymore, I stay up all night having panic attacks about work. I have nightmares about work when I do sleep.

But I also am too scared to leave. I love this job, and I have been pushing so hard, I wanted to become smth I wanted my cfa experience to last longer than this, but I don’t feel like I even belong there or fit in, even though I have been there one of the longest.

Am I being pathetic for leaving this early?? What made you decide to finally just leave?? Should I stick this out, will it get better??

My birthday is in the first week of february, so really, this goal is aimed towards february 1st, but I really want to lose about 45 lbs. (eventually, i want to lose more, this isn’t my final goal by any means)

So far, i’ve managed to lose 30 lbs since april, but my autoimmune disease flared really bad, i’ve been swapped around on a lot of medications which helped me gain most of that back. I also started a job at a chick fil a, and where i’m getting about 10k+ steps a day just from work alone, I found myself ordering quick and easy things such as mac and fried chicken sandwiches. So I know I have let go a bit in that department too!!

Currently standing in at 245lbs as a 5’8, 24yo f.

Do we think it’s possible to lose 45 lbs by February safely? And how does everyone keep strong during the holidays? I am nervous about that!

We don’t have a fridge or microwave to bring our own food to work, but I did get some thermos containers so I can maybe bring some fruits or cottage cheese or something. Tempted to get a few more and maybe a small lunch box??

Any tips or advice or encouragement would be amazing! I can lose the weight at first but it ALWAYS comes back. I don’t want to go into 25 this overweight and sick all the time!

Edit: forgot to mention that last feb I started in at 267lbs!

I am currently looking for a better calorie tracking app. I’ve been using lifesum off and on for a few years, but I’m debating switching to something else, or should I just pay premium? Is it worth it?

What apps do you guys use to track your calories? And, do you like it? I really want to get better at tracking my carbs, proteins, and fiber intake. I do have a food scale already.

I am also wondering what step counters people like the most? I can’t wear an apple watch to work, so that wouldn’t be a good option for me. I used to use a Fitbit Versa 2, and still have it, but it’s rather old and I don’t like the new Google Health app over the fitbit app. I also have heard it’s not that accurate for steps and for workouts. I just want something to give me an idea of what i’m burning a day, even though I know it’s probably impossible to get perfectly accurate results. I’d like to track my sleep but it’s also not my main priority.

Any and all suggestions are welcome!