u/BellaRyder2505

I have always know that I wanted to be single and childfree forever. Even when I was in middle school and high school I had crushes sure but I never ever cared to date or have sex or anything. This has always been a part of who I was and am in a way if that makes sense. And it wasn't until recently being on reddit that I realized how different that path was. Being on here opened my eyes to how so many women especially are treated being single and childfree in their 30s. Being on here has made me become obsessed and overthink with how people think about me if they ask about if I am single or have kids. And how my life will be like being single and childfree when I am older. And I know I am just overthinking and I know I shouldn't care what people say or think. I guess it just makes me sad how a lot of women are especially and seen by the world and society who chose to be single and childfree in their 30s. Especially in other cultures and countries. I know I am lucky being in a city and having a family that doesn't care or question me. I guess I am just worried and scared about going throughout the world and society and interacting with other people and I don't want to deal with people's judgment or comments or anything. I know I am just rambling lol and I need to stop being on reddit for so long lol. Just wanted to say how I feel lol. I know I need to not care about what people say or think about me and I need to just live my best life and be free and my peace. My mind just has me overthink about everything lol. 😂

But I love not living or thinking like the majority of people in the world. Majority of people in the world are suffering or go through hard and horrific things because they are married or dating or childfree. And a lot of them have issues or problems as well that I will never ever have to deal with. Never. I love living in a different reality and world than the majority of people.

I know I won't suffer as much or go through as much hardship or pain or drama or chaos in this life because I am choosing to stay single and and celibate and being infertile and childfree. I feel so free and happy and at peace. I kinda love not being the majority. I find it funny that society and the world pities and shamed and judges women like me but I just laugh at the majority of the people choosing hell and chaos and suffering with marriage and kids. I say majority of people cause I know only some and rarely people are happy with kids or marriage. I feel like I got so lucky and nothing and no one can control or change me. The way I live and who I am is a threat to society and the world and it terrifies society and the world.

I feel like I got so lucky. Throughout my whole life I never really had anyone ask or question me or pressure me into dating or kids or marriages or anything. I remember even when I was in high school and middle school my mom and sister never asked why I didn't have a boyfriend or if I wanted to have kids. And I got lucky that I didn't have anyone else in my life who asked me or cared or pressured me. I almost feel guilty because seeing so many posts about people especially women getting pressured or questioned or shamed for not being married or dating or having kids and it really breaks my heart and makes me so sad. I couldn't imagine having people like that in my life. I can only hope that this society and world becomes a more accepting place towards people(especially women) who want to stay single or not have kids or date anyone.

You come into this world alone and you leave this world alone. It's amazing to have friends and family that support and love you and be there for you but ultimately you can only rely and count on yourself to make yourself happy. I feel like it's so unhealthy to attach happiness to another person. Friends come and go and family comes and goes. And ultimately you are always with yourself at the end of the day. I think of the song me, myself, and I by Beyonce lol. I think I meant loving yourself and being your biggest cheerleader.

When Chairwoman Park said that your children and friends leave you but your spouse doesn't is a lie because your spouse can die before you and leave you all alone or they can actually leave you leave you and divorce you and leave you all alone. Made no sense lol.

I just watched episode 1 but boy are they annoying and stupid. What pisses me off is Ashley being so sad and upset not being able to have kids and saying how I can't do the one thing what this is all about. And then they complain about how they have no money and how bad their life is. What a fucking joke!! How selfish and cruel it is to bring a child into this world. So stupid. And she acting like infertile woman or woman who don't wanna have kids aren't real woman! What bullshit! The delusion and stupidity! As if the world needs more people when there is over 8 billion fucking people on the planet. They are stupid stupid characters.

My hatred for humans and rage for humans has grown more and more. I hate that I have to deal with other humans my whole life and I hate that I have to live with and try and accept people still bringing kids into this fucked up society and world. And I have to deal with stupid stupid articles and governments caring about the stupid stupid birth rates too. Living and existing in this world and society is just exhausting and tiring and draining. I hate it. I hate everything about it. And the good things and things that make me happy are so few and far between and are only temporary. I don't know how to cope with all of this. I am just glad all of this is temporary and doesn't last. I just cannot stand the other humans I share this earth with. Especially those who still continue to have kids. Humanity is such a lost and idiotic species to me.