u/Best_Treat_704

So this is a very gross spiral that genuinely made me close to killing myself and i still feel guilt about it sometimes. / very insane diabolical stuff like sh and mentions of rapists

My friend's rapist began to hit on me and try to be inappropriate with me, but being the person I am I immediately began to spiral and convince myself I was attracted to him despite me being repulsed by everything about him. It ended up in me harming myself seven times on each part of me, if it wasn't right I'd restart. I did it hoping this meant I cared enough to do something about it, and if I didn't do anything I like him. I was doing rituals 24/7 to make me feel less guilt. Eventually I voluntarily sent myself to a mental hospital and it chilled out. But recently ive been feeling major guilt about it. It's over. I know I have ocd now. But now I think I have ulterior motives because my new boyfriend has similar things to him despite being WAY different and being a genuinely amazing person. Is there a way I can get this to stop? It's becoming very exhausting. Any help is appreciated

I really wanna observe moths at the place I'm gonna be moving at. I currently live in Maryland and I've seen imperial moths, regal moths, and Lunas plus some smaller moths. Is there a way to attract them? like with plants or something?

So I literally just got in a relationship and I feel like an impure sexual deviant that deserves death. I hate this disorder it turned my first relationship into something terrible I hate my life

I've been stuck with pads since I was 10. I'm now 16 and I don't know how to use a tampon without it being absolutely excruciating. I always push it out uncontrollably or it's so irritating i can't stand it. Or i just get really uncomfortable and sad. I know pads are fine and all but I just wanna be more comfortable and secure.

Ive been diagnosed since 2025 and I'm wondering if some of the things I do are related, it's kind of silly but I've been always holding up my friends on roblox because I keep changing my avatar over and over again until it feels right. It usually never feels right and it would often bug me. just something silly I thought about

Ive always policed myself on what I do, worrying about being a bad person. Like being racist, transphobic, etc. like what if I said something wrong? What if Im prejudiced?? What if I used a dog whistle??? What If I make people uncomfortable?? Yeah it basically goes on... And being in a family that often says racist things doesn't help, because I feel racist by association. I know I'm none of those things but I can't help but police EVERYTHING I do out of fear that Ill do something wrong. Moral ocd is a prison fr.

I got bored of my very no skill mains (naiad and geisha) and ive been playing her recently because she's REALLY pretty, but my gameplay isn't very smooth and i usually get ties or losses, still fun af but is there any good tips or guide videos?? ?? so i don't suck cheeks??