I can’t believe. Why?
As an agnostic atheist, I genuinely wish I could believe in god as it gives life purpose and provides a major sense of closure. Ive debated religion countless times with people trying to prove gods existence, im only a junior in high school so I objectively lose many of the debates. Despite this my mind genuinely cannot believe (or maybe comprehend?) the existence of a god, ive been convinced over and over and proven wrong time and time again by smarter, more religious people than me. But I cant believe. Its like someone proving santa could be real and proving you wrong, your mind just wouldnt accept it. Ive heard alot of stories of people converting and it sounds like every time there was a exact moment/switch that went off in their head that led them to confide back (or for the first time) in god. I wonder daily where is my “switch”.