u/Budget_Paramedic7937

All they do is think about sps and money (me included when I was deep in it). It’s such a selfish mindset, “no one is real just me, everyone is me pushed out”, like I fear you’re not that special. I love going on manifesting lives and asking questions these coaches don’t wanna answer.

I had went on this really popular girls live (she’s a witch and a manifestor), and I asked her why she doesn’t manifest world peace? She said it’s not her business. She manifests things for herself, she doesn’t know what others want. I was shocked, I have never heard anyone be that self centered in my life. Also, her so called sp ended up being like beyond terrible, I won’t put her business out there since it’s not my place (she’s explained it on live but yk). But people were asking if she manifested the things he did, and she got mad and cussed everyone out and ended the live.

Idk man that community is sad asf thank goodness I was able to get out. My friend is still in it, she bought the Neville book, and she’s so delusional it blows my mind. Her “sps” last name is a biblical word, and everytime the book said it, she said it was a sign. And the book ends with his first name misspelled😭I had to distance myself from her sometimes, but I get scared for her because she doesn’t want to hear anything negative about manifesting

I had been in that LoA bs for about 4 months, probably can see it in my past posts if I haven’t deleted them out of embarrassment lol. I was trying to manifest a person back (sad I know).

I’ve recently started to realize that these people aka the manifesting community are so toxic, selfish, and just overall self-centered. No offense, but they all seem broke and don’t have exciting lives. The money they make, is always from coaching people. Their success stories from other people sound so fake, like they wrote it or hired someone to.

I’ve asked a “coach” once if they could just manifest a million dollars so we can see it, genuinely asking so I could “believe “ more, and she went OFF on me. Sammy Ingram is a rude as hell, and her story doesn’t add up. This other coach, who I had actually really liked, ended up being a scammer and a known POS.

It just blows my mind that I was so gullible. I am usually a very logical person, so I’m disappointed in myself for thinking so selfishly. The “sp” I wanted, I just wanted them to come back to talk. And the manifestation community told me I wasn’t doing it right, but that’s all I really wanted. They said I wasn’t reaching far enough. No matter what I was always doing something wrong.

Now. I just hope they come back to talk one day, if they don’t, oh well. I know I’m stupid as hell for even trying this stuff, but I’m happy I’m coming back to my senses. The only thing i appreciate from the Loa community is realizing I’m very interested in consciousness and reality science.

Edit: Just wanted to add that I said “starting to snap out of it” because sometimes I still find myself saying things like “EIYPO” or “no one is real this is my reality” and it’s scary.

Just wondering, I mainly just like to look at his tik tok reposts and what he’s listening to on Spotify. I actually saw some “movement “ ig you could call it from his repost. I had reposted an edit of this movie commenting “ no one can get past my awkwardness” and it was directed towards him. And he had reposted the same edit pretty much. He also reposted a tik tok I had liked already. I consider anything movement lol. Just wondering if it would be quicker and maybe better if I didn’t look at all?

It doesn’t really, but to me it does!

He reposted an edit of a movie, that I had reposted a while ago, commenting “no one can get past my awkwardness” since the movie is so freaking awkward lol. But yeah I find this to be movement towards me since I’m so magnetic and he’s obsessed with me fully 😊😊

Now, I want to preface that this is my relationship with her personally, and may not be the same with you and her.

I was having a really bad night last year, I was sad over this man, especially because how he treated me. I know I shouldn’t beg for a man who doesn’t treat me right now, but at the time, no. I had researched Lilith a little before and had written to her a few times. I decided to pray to her. I envisioned her with me, and talked to her out loud. I had told her about this man and how I really wanted to spend more time with him. Keep in mind, we had been no contact for months now. I had the sudden realization that I AM the prize, and I do not have to try to get a man’s attention. I have almost never thought like this. It was surreal. Fast forward a few months, I had almost forgotten about him, and he had sent me a text. He was asking to be friends again, and asked to hang out that night. It was the first time I have ever felt connected to something spiritually. The first thought I had when the text came through was “Lilith.” I knew she had done this for me. Now, where I had messed up is I didn’t continue to work with her after that. Possibly out of excitement, I don’t know. But it wasn’t on purpose. And that situation ended badly.

But I just wanted to share this story since it was a time I will never forget.

I really want to talk to him, but idk if I should text him or not. Help!! I have his Spotify and can see what he’s listening to and I just miss him a lot.

As the titles states, I have an interview soon, but it was scheduled by AI. I called the building a few times but no answer. I’m wondering if I should go in early to see if I actually have an interview, or just wait until the scheduled time.