u/BuffBucky7

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I (23M) was officially diagnosed with aspergers when I was 11, along with OCD, ADHD and PTSD. My entire life has been largely dominated by anxiety and depression, along with significant struggles in executive functioning. I was never accomodated for my asd growing up despite my diagnosis which had led to me being relatively oblivious to how it was truly impacting me. It was only until i moved last year at 22 did additional challenges become Despite these challeneges I have managed to secure a bachelors degree and will be completing my masters within the year from a reputable college, but sadly this is really the only thing i have going for me. Last year I began researching autism to better understand my affliction, and I realized I was in burnout. Since then Ive been working so hard to find some solution or way to pull myself out of this to avail.

It seems even in forums like this whered you expect people to be knowledgable, those who seek answers are vastly met with sympathies rather meaningful responses. Replies such as "I hear how hard it is for you" and "I can understand how thats difficult". I know these people mean well, and this is moreso me venting my frustration than adding anything productive, but its so tiring not being able to find at the very least information that could help. It truly feels as if I am destined to a life of misery with no way out, only abated by those who can "relate".

I struggle with the idea that the only catharsis to this life would be to end it prematurely. Im not advocating for self harm, nor am I actively suicidal, but logically it seems to me at this moment that a pain that is impossible remedy is not worth enduring for its sake. It seems that the only reason that neurotypical people advocate against ending it (specifically for autistic indiviudals) is because they cant even conceptualize the level of daily anguish we face, since our brains process the world entirely different. Not to mention theres an inherent level of altruistic benefit by those advocate against it.

Anyways, I just want answers. Something to stand on so I can at the very least start working through these challanges rather than downing beneath them.

Thank you

So I (23M) was officially diagnosed with aspergers when I was 11, along with OCD, ADHD and PTSD. My entire life has been largely dominated by anxiety and depression, along with significant struggles in executive functioning. I was never accomodated for my asd growing up despite my diagnosis which had led to me being relatively oblivious to how it was truly impacting me. It was only until i moved last year at 22 did additional challenges become Despite these challeneges I have managed to secure a bachelors degree and will be completing my masters within the year from a reputable college, but sadly this is really the only thing i have going for me. Last year I began researching autism to better understand my affliction, and I realized I was in burnout. Since then Ive been working so hard to find some solution or way to pull myself out of this to avail.

It seems even in forums like this whered you expect people to be knowledgable, those who seek answers are vastly met with sympathies rather meaningful responses. Replies such as "I hear how hard it is for you" and "I can understand how thats difficult". I know these people mean well, and this is moreso me venting my frustration than adding anything productive, but its so tiring not being able to find at the very least information that could help. It truly feels as if I am destined to a life of misery with no way out, only abated by those who can "relate".

I struggle with the idea that the only catharsis to this life would be to end it prematurely. Im not advocating for self harm, nor am I actively suicidal, but logically it seems to me at this moment that a pain that is impossible remedy is not worth enduring for its sake. It seems that the only reason that neurotypical people advocate against ending it (specifically for autistic indiviudals) is because they cant even conceptualize the level of daily anguish we face, since our brains process the world entirely different. Not to mention theres an inherent level of altruistic benefit by those advocate against it.

Anyways, I just want answers. Something to stand on so I can at the very least start working through these challanges rather than downing beneath them.

Thank you