u/BunchCrafty5267

I [20F] am an extremely sensitive person. My family(parents, sister and brother in law) came to visit me in the place where I live. I wanted to show them all the important places, so I planned an itinerary. I did it only with good intentions. I was so excited about this that I spent the entire week searching for the places they would like to go to. Today, they came and somewhere around the evening my dad told it on my face that he didn't like the place that I took them to and he would never come to visit me. He knows that I deeply get affected by such words. We have fought over similar incidents a lot, and yet he does it every time. I got hurt. Not just him, no one seemed to be as interested as me. Even my sister kept complaining about the places. Only my mom was sweet to me.

I told them a million times before the visit that they need not come here if they didn't want to. I would be completely fine. I told them not to make me sad after the visit because they did that last time as well. Last time, after the visit they complained about the expense and the suffering they had to go through just to come and visit me.

Ok, I was sad, but I kept telling myself that I won't make a scene and I should be happy and not ruin the trip. So even if I wasn't as happy as before, I kept silent and let them do the rest of the trip planning for the day. I stopped helping them with the deciding.

They got pissed and started triggering me by asking what happened, stop being angry. I had every right to be angry. They kept doing this until I finally broke down. I cried in public. I cried in front of my brother in law. Now I'm extremely embarrassed. I can't face them tomorrow.

They think I'm always trying to ruin everyone's mood, and I'm immature. I swear to God, I would have kept silent if they didn't trigger me. Now, all of this is a joke to them, and they just continued with their happy conversations even after I cried. No one values my emotions.

I need immediate help. Tell me what should I do, please. Am I being immature? Should I suck it all in and pretend like I dont care and stay with them until they go back home? Or should I just go back to my hostel tomorrow first thing in the morning?

I come from a middle class family. My parents gave me the primary education that they couldn't even afford. They sent me to a school where all my classmates had rich parents and they never struggled with money. They used to go party and have fun every weekend. They used to invite me too, but I always denied because I knew my parents wouldn't agree to pay for that. I'm very grateful that they put me in such a prestigious school but I often felt inferior in comparison to my classmates.

After 12th, even though all my friends studied just as much as me, they got into big big colleges through management quota and I joined a tier three engineering which is not even in my city. Even now, in college, all my friends are financially more well off. Same story continues. I can't go out on weekends. I keep watching reels on how teenagers should travel a lot in their college life as it will be their best memory but unfortunately I've never been on a trip with my friends. I didn't even go for the 10th grade school trip to goa. I've missed out on a lot due to financial issues.

I have been experiencing severe hairfall since 11th grade and a lot of people suggested me to go visit a doctor for the same. But I can't afford to spend much on it so I'll have to deal with my embarrassing, nearly bald scalp until I find a job. Besides, I also need therapy as I have a lot of underlying issues because of which I'm extremely under confident and have a very low self esteem. But again, I can't afford it.

Nowadays, I frequently fight with my parents blaming them indirectly for not being rich. I tell them how all my friends have rich parents and only im the one suffering. I feel awful for doing so but at the heat of the moment it just comes out from my mouth.

I'm so ungrateful. I know. But they have always been very stingy and accuse me of being a spendthrift and make me feel guilty when i spend on the most basic stuff. That's when I lose control and blame them.

Please tell me who is wrong and who is right. How do I change my behavior and be more grateful and mature.

I have a few friends, but I’ve never felt like I have a genuine connection with any of them.

I care deeply about them, support them, and want the best for them but I don’t feel that same level of care coming back. They’re nice to me, but it feels surface-level, and I don’t fully trust them.

Over time, most of my friendships seem to drift away, even though I haven’t been rude or done anything intentionally wrong. It makes me wonder if I’m the problem—maybe I come across as boring or too distant.

Lately, this has been affecting me more than usual. I’ve become more irritable, and even small things from them annoy me.

How do I deal with this?

Is it better to stop expecting deeper connections, or is there something I should change about how I approach friendships?

I have a few friends, but I’ve never felt like I have a genuine connection with any of them.

I care deeply about them, support them, and want the best for them but I don’t feel that same level of care coming back. They’re nice to me, but it feels surface-level, and I don’t fully trust them.

Over time, most of my friendships seem to drift away, even though I haven’t been rude or done anything intentionally wrong. It makes me wonder if I’m the problem—maybe I come across as boring or too distant.

Lately, this has been affecting me more than usual. I’ve become more irritable, and even small things from them annoy me.

How do I deal with this?

Is it better to stop expecting deeper connections, or is there something I should change about how I approach friendships?

I have a few friends, but I’ve never felt like I have a genuine connection with any of them.

I care deeply about them, support them, and want the best for them but I don’t feel that same level of care coming back. They’re nice to me, but it feels surface-level, and I don’t fully trust them.

Over time, most of my friendships seem to drift away, even though I haven’t been rude or done anything intentionally wrong. It makes me wonder if I’m the problem—maybe I come across as boring or too distant.

Lately, this has been affecting me more than usual. I’ve become more irritable, and even small things from them annoy me.

How do I deal with this?

Is it better to stop expecting deeper connections, or is there something I should change about how I approach friendships?