u/Capital_Chapter1006

I was taking a walk the other day on my usual route, and noticed a painting that’s been abandoned on the footpath and propped up against a bollard.

It’s an eye looking down a tunnel and the painting is in reds and greys, homemade, not framed, probably by a novice painter.

I walked passed it again today and it’s still there and I’m wondering if I should chuck it in a bin if it’s still there in a week? It’s really creepy and gross.

I have spoken to gynae-oncologist, I understand my situation much better now. And it’s not great tbh. Evidence suggests of a fair bit of cancer. IF it’s cancer. Diagnosis absolutely required before committing to it.

Surgery is in two weeks, I’ve seen the stoma team and gotten my dots placed. I’ve also got the bowel prep to take the day before. Lots of pamphlets and warnings to not try and tough out pain. There was quite a firm warning that if she removes everything she feels she needs to, I could be in hospital for a week or longer. But, they should have me up and about on my second day.

I fully intend to race people.

Emotionally I’m a bit angry, grumpy. I feel like, and my psychologist confirms it, I’ve already had a challenging life and it sucks that I now have to deal with this. But I do, and I need to manage my emotions effectively. Which means taking responsibility for my pain management for the next two weeks because I’m very sore.

Things still feel like they’re moving very slowly but, I just want to not fight the process. And be patient. But, my fears are nipping at my heels and I’m struggling to manage them.

That cool art of Coronabeth by reimanticism and the conversations about how people picture her physically have made me wonder how everyone pictures Gideon. We don’t get a heeeap of detail about Gideon’s build or much info on if she’s big, thick and beefy or if she’s more of a ripped athletic type. Genetically speaking, we still don’t have much info, but can reasonably assume that if she’s big, thick and beefy, she got her physique, physicality and build from Wake. And definitely not Jod.

I’d love to know everyone’s reasoning, references and all the details if people are comfy to share, please.

It’s fun to look into, because the books give us a lot of freedom with deciding on character’s appearance as part of the reading experience. Aside from a precious few who have more details about how their bodies are structured, anyway (mainly the necromancers).

Thanks!

I have the date, the time, I have appropriate expectations for the appointment and some idea of what’ll happen. They especially noted that the surgeon will go over exactly what they’ve found and what that means.

They also said that my surgery will take place within 4 weeks of this appointment and I’m relieved. It feels like the limbo I was in is easing.

There’s only really been two downsides to the wait. I had another cyst rupture and it landed me in the ED again because of the symptoms, and at my gyno appointment they said they found more confirmation of a likely, very slow growing renal cancer. Thankfully with the ED trip, the bleeding wasn’t toooooo bad though I did have to move and breathe carefully for a couple of days.

I’m staying positive, I’m still not sold on “I for sure have cancer” yet, I’ll wait for the biopsy results and then manage whatever emotions come up. I do feel like I have to be strong for my sister whom I care for, and I’m worried that everything going on with me will trigger her psychosis and will land her in hospital again. She okay so far, she recently got discharged and she’s helping me so much. I’ll work with my psychologist to figure out strategies to set me up with good skills to help manage myself.

Right now, I mostly want my mum. I wish she were here to help out and take over care of my sister. She died of a metastatic non specific sarcoma when she was 36. Her mother had breast cancer and survived it and _her_ mother died young from suspected pancreatic cancer. I just feel like she’d understand, you know?

Oh well, let’s see how this unfolds. A confirmed appointment is the best news!

Hi all!

Migraine sufferer and inflammatory arthritis haver, here. I have a 4 year old iPhone SE that was working great for me until the update last night. It’s been extra great since an update changed the location of the browser search bar.

Unfortunately, the new Liquid Glass look, motion and layout is messing with my hands and my eyes. And really struggling with the brightness of the look of the design.

I know I can’t change where and how the alarms and timers alerts come up, but the swipe to stop alarm is causing me pain. Is there anything I can do about getting rid of the swipe?

With the visual stuff, I’ve done the following:
- appearance is set to “Dark”
- Liquid Glass is set to tinted
- bold text is on
- brightness lowered
- show borders is on
- reduce transparency is on
- increase contrast is on
- reduce motion is on
- prefer cross-fade transitions is on

I’m prepared to change the wallpaper to some plain and a single colour. I’m also prepared to use an ereader and go back to using a computer for everything I can.

Is there anything I’ve missed that will help make the display easier to look at and the layout less hard on my hands?

Hi all, hope it’s okay if I post here. So far I’m only suspected as having ovarian cancer, and I’m wondering if other people have had a similar experience to mine.

I presented to a doctor on the 16th of April after pretty bad abdominal pain, who sent me onto the ED. On the 17th of April following a CT and ultrasound, the ED confirmed either a 7cm mass on my right ovary or my ovary is a 7cm mass, no one has said anything definitive to me. And either the ovary or fallopian tube has burst. My bloods have come back with my ovarian cancer tumour markers as 10,100.

After speaking to a doctor at my home practice, he immediately referred me to a hospital close to me with a gyno section. They were initially worried about ovarian torsion, said I’d have surgery on the 27th of April and did another CT and ultrasound on the 21st of April.

The surgical team visited me and said they won’t be doing the surgery for the time being. I asked “isn’t the burst ovary/fallopian tube spreading cancer around my body if it’s cancer?” And they said that I’d be getting chemo anyway. That’s how I found out I’d be getting chemo. They also dropped the news about the hysterectomy, removal of ovaries, cervix and fat around the uterus in a similar way.

My next gyno appointment at the hospital isn’t until the first week of May. I have no idea about when the surgery is. I have very little information about what’s wrong with me and I live in daily fear of ovarian torsion and pain that isn’t improving and feels like it’s gotten worse.

Is this all normal? Am I wrong to be scared that things feel like they’re moving very slowly?