My therapist thinks I’m still manic I just don’t know if I am or not.
So interesting thing. I was manic a few months ago or maybe it was one month ago. I’m not sure. It’s kind of blurry tbh. I was not sleeping much(around maybe 3 hours a night or so)and I was seeing and hearing things that weren’t there and thinking things that were not real. I haven’t had those symptoms in a few weeks but I’m still not sleeping much. Though some nights I think I sleep more than 3 hours it’s just broken sleep. I think I slept like 6 hours last night but I think I woke up a few times during it. Anyway I am full of energy all day. Though it’s not when I first wake up. I can sit in bed for a minute and I just think about how grateful I am to have the life I have. How privileged I am to be here and have a job and stuff. When I get up and get dressed or shower or anything though I get the energy and start having the thoughts of how amazing everything is. Like I feel like nothing bad will EVER happen to me and that I can do whatever I want. I get really hyper and giggle often. The main thoughts I have though are in relation to social justice. I feel like I HAVE to do something for those who can’t. That it’s my mission from God or the universe or something above me. I have been fighting for what’s right in different ways. Making sure it’s known on social media. I have been talking to people a lot on TikTok trying to get them to see the truth. My therapist said this is trending into grandiosity or whatever. I think I have just discovered my new passion. I cared a lot about social justice before, but now it’s all consuming. It’s something I HAVE to help with. What if I just found my passion in life?