u/Caseyyyjonesz

Ive loved​ drawing sense I was really young, but everytime I try to draw now, I have a panic attack.

Ive heard the "draw stuff you like!" But that doesn't work or help, I LOVE my ocs, but I can't draw them for shit. I'm so bad at drawing and it upsets me, I try to get better with practice and videos but they make no sense, dont teach me what I want/need to learn, and/or just make my art look worse.

I don't really have an art style but it's more cartoonish, ​​​all the tutorials are realistic, I get I need to learn realism or whatever but I wanna practice drawing stuff I actually like first.​​​

I have had violent thoughts sense I was maybe around 7 or so?? When I was in 2nd grade me and my friend made a promise to become some type of like gang and kill people, I made a whole plan on how to kill myself (of course never went through with it nor even tried​​)

I have like a faint memory of me and said friend having a 'joke' of some sort where I'd choke her???? Idk what it was abt or why we did it.

In 2nd to 3rd I would day dream about shooting up my school​​ and killing the teachers

Ive had urges of hurting people and I don't know why. I don't know if its because of any of my disorders, because of one idk abt, or just intrusive thoughts. Ive tried to research but all the disorders ive found that cause these urges and actions also involve being a 'bad kid's, acting out, lashing out, stuff like that, I'm guessing it's just a symptom of another disorder I already know I have or just intrusive thoughts but it's been bugging me

Uhh here are my disorders incase it's just one of them: autism, anxiety, depression, ADHD, and OSDD​​​​​

I think I MAY also have OCD because of some of my weird habits but my mom brushes it off as an autism symptom but uhh yea okay thanks 🥹

(sorry if this isnt the right flair)

we're looking for a discord server for like persecutor or unstable alters? We think it'd be really nice for our persecutor headmates to have a place to talk considering they often get introuble when talking in servers (due to them 'bluntly' telling ppl when they don't like them and things along that line)

We used to be in one but the owner and another member kept sending ai memes so we left

I really want an alternative that I can put multiple rows of text next to an image, because like the 3 Ive used so far won't let me, one did but I had to do like really complex shit and then it made a huge blank area​​​​​ at the bottom 😞😞

also I need one that's an app on Android, are there any??​

I LOVE yumeshippers, I am one myself, but oh my god. I kin Pim Pimling from SF, and EVERY post i see from the subreddit is just yumeshippers of me, same when I joined a SF dc server a while back. It makes me SO uncomfy, like you're not my partner?? bring back my bf??? Your yume is canon just not in my universe. I blocked like 2 ppl who yume me before giving up and muting the whole subreddit 🙏

Hiii...I've never commissioned someone before and I'm a little nervous
Idk what my budget is because my mom is paying for it and hasn't given me a price yet, I'm trying to find an artist first and show my mom their work and prices
Uhh idk what else to add 😞

EDIT: I'M GETTING A LOTTT OF DMS IM SORRY IF I REPLY LATE !!!!
EDIT2: I THINK I FOUND SOMEONE TO DO IT !! PLS DONT DM ME !!!!

How does insys dating work? We don't have a headspace (probably due to the fact that we can't/can barely see images in our head or smth) and our communication isn't that good, most of us only have short (playful) arguments or short convos in servers when picking on each other, so would it even be possible for us to date each other/another headmate?

I thought y'all would like this bc I've seen several TMNT kins here and all the TMNT servers I've been in aren't very kin friendly...

Its very new...but just as cool !!​ I spent a while on it, its aesthetically pleasing, for 13+, has a verification system to avoid trolls and raids, etc !!

And for the adults, so far the few people that have joined are 17+, if anything idm making an adult only chat ​​bc I've seen a lot of adults who want fandom spaces where they can just talk to adults!! (Same with a minor only chat)

theres also gaming pings, vc pings, roleplay pings, etccc, its so fun, TRUST !!! https://discord.gg/YeSgMZcMhX Feed back loved and encuraged !! (pls ignore my butt spelling)

Its very new...but just as cool !!
It's system friendly !!!!
I spent a while on it, its aesthetically pleasing, for 13+, has a verification system to avoid trolls and raids, etc !!
theres also gaming pings, vc pings, roleplay pings, etccc, its so fun, TRUST !!!
https://discord.gg/YeSgMZcMhX
Feed back loved and encuraged !! pls ignore my butt spelling

Is there a term for a fictive who enjoys their source and contected to it but not how they behave in it?
Like they may watch/read their source but don't act nor like how they act in source ?

We're making profiles and want a short way of saying this like when ppl say "Source separated" and stuff