u/CassavaKween

Sayo sa buntag and nag wonder ko kung inana ba jud ko ka batig nawng and batig batasan nga unlovable kaayo ko?

i know generally well-liked man ko according to my friends. Pag college ako ang type na friends nako tanan nako classmates. Like naa gyud koy mastoryaan about nila and if naay need ang uban, ako ang paduolon may miga nako sila tanan.

Sa work murag besties sad nako most, if not all, departments. To the point nga mu stand by and defend gyud sila nako when needed.

But lately makathink ko if unlovable ba jud ko and delulu rani nako tanan na friends ko sa mga tao.

ingon ako mga closest friends na sincere and genuine daw ko na pagkatao. Tinuod man pud. Dili ko ingon santo, pero for me kay if friendly ko nimo, it’s because ganahan jud ko ma friends ta. Di ko kibaw magpakaplastic. Civil and professional, yes. Pero if di ko ganahan nimo, it will show kay I will avoid you.

The downside sad gyud kay magexoect ko tanan kasing sincere og intentions nako. So mao prone ko ma betray or ma taken advantage of. I know I should be more discerning of the people who try to get close to me, but nature jud nako to see the good in everyone - unless hate gyud kaayo tika aw dumot sad gyud ko.

Mao to. Mag think ko karon unsa gyud diay ko ka unlovable kay I don’t know, ka sense rako na people only befriend me kay either bored sila, mangutang sila, or they want to fuck me. Hayyy kapoya baya.

I woke up having the most terrible thoughts. Wala ko nikuyog sa ako family and nagpabilin ko alone sa condo tonight.

Sige gyud ko crash out, dala pud siguro sa ka stressed sa mga panghitabo lately.

Nag message ko sako bestfriend, no reply kay probably busy sa work.

Nag chat ko sako sister, seenzoned. Ga medical mission ata to. Ni chat pud ko sako brother explaining what’s happening to me, wala raman siya nag react tho he did check up on me.

Nag hangyo pud ko sako ex fubu if ganahan siya mag come over sa condo. I mean I know I should have more self-respect but I also consider him a good friend of mine. I just don’t trust myself to be alone tonight kay basin naa ko mahunahunaan ba. Di ata siya ganahan makakita nako so he made an excuse.

So mao to, I’m home alone in my condo with very deep and dark thoughts – the kind that I don’t want to entertain.

I know kaya raman jud ni nako ako mga challenges in life. Ako pa. Wala man sad ko ga lisod. It’s just that I’m so burnt out and hapit nako maabot sa akong limit ay.

I don’t know if I’ll still see tomorrow’s sunrise with how crazy and messy and chaotic my mind is right now. I just wanna end it all and rest. Maybe things would be better for everyone else and wala na sila need problemahon pa.

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I bought a White King brownie and crinkles mix and I’m planning to bake crinkles. Tips please! Thank you.

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Kibaw mo anang feeling na mura rakag ga exist? Ga buhat sa dapat buhatunon sa work and at home, spend time with family ginagmay. Yet I feel so empty gyud and dead inside.

At the moment, literally existing rako. I don’t feel like I am ever truly living life.

It doesn’t help na heartbroken pa pud ko. Abi nako ang 2026 dedicated to myself pero I went back to my old habit of sleeping around and unfortunately, falling for my partners.

Naa koy ganahan na Redditor pero wala gyud mi paingnan. Feel nako napul-an napud siya nako but he’s just keeping me around kay friends mi sa iyaha bestfriend. Small world lage kaayo.

Ganahan ko mu focus sa ako self, but daghan kaayo things need atimanon. Sa work mej taas ko position so sa amo department, ako gyud ang main decision-maker. Sa balay eldest ko so grabe pressure sa akoa. Ga teach pud ko and ma pressure gyud ko na dapat naa ma learn ako students while having fun.

Kibaw man ko most of this pressure and my stressors are self-imposed, pero I guess it comes naturally gyud sa akoa na people pleaser and perfectionist. Di gyud ko ganahan na half-baked og trabaho. I go all out, bisan sa unrequited love.

On the outside, I look like I’m thriving. I just got a new condo, I have a high paying job, I look like someone who has her shit together.

Pero in reality, I’m just a lost little girl who needs a break and who wants to be loved. Gahhhh. Pwede mag early out sa life?