u/ChannelOk42

If you guys have ever seen those pocket FM ads where the story is very dramatic and annoyingly suspenseful I’d like a podcast on Spotify that tells short stories like that. Or Wattpad type stories. I want one that does all the different voices and stuff for the different characters. For some reason I get so wrapped up in those drama romances it’s hilarious. PLEASE DONT RECOMMEND ANY SMUT LIKE PODCASTS

My rta app shows that it’s coming but then when it’s time for the bus to get here it’ll say “Departed on time” what’s with that? Why doesn’t it say when it’s not coming

AIO? My best friend is constantly telling me “you’re so lucky” whenever I achieve something even though she knows how much effort I put into it. I’ve told her that calling my achievements “lucky” made me uncomfortable several times because it feels like she is discrediting all the effort I put into it. But even though I’ve told her many times she still insists on just calling it “lucky”

Also recently I’ve been leveling up my life after a breakup and I’ve been going out more/getting healthier and jumping at more opportunities. One of those things was that I got a second part time job because I’d like to buy a car. I got my permit and license and now I’m just saving. When I told my best friend about the job she said “oh it’s just something temporary?” And I said that I might keep it. Later on I complained about a rude coworker to her as best friends do and she flat out said “yeah you’re probably gonna quit soon.” And I got quiet. Because how in the world did she jump that far? Plus at that point in time I’d only been working there a week.. I was shocked and a little bit annoyed.

Also recently her vibe has been completely off with me. She acts very bothered when we’re on the phone and she ignores me a lot. I sent her a picture of me doing something and she ignored it. Which is off brand for her. Very off brand. We’ve had issues in the past because we’re long distance best friends and she wanted me to move to her state but I was nervous about committing to it because I don’t know anyone in the city she lives in. I wanted to live in a nice city near her but she was acting annoyed at me and claiming I just wanted to be around white people. Which is obviously incorrect I’m literally a poc idc if the whole city was poc I just was nervous to live in a bad neighborhood/city knowing I didn’t have any family there when I needed help. On top of that moving isn’t just as easy as “get up and go” especially not with how expensive things are in her state. She grilled me so hard about that and to this day I don’t know why. But that was past issues around this point in time I don’t know what’s wrong I think I’ve had it with this friendship. I don’t feel supported by my best friend of 6.5 years. There’s only so much one person can take. We’re not perfect I understand but I feel like is basic decency for a best friend to celebrate each others wins and I don’t feel as though she’s happy about any accomplishment I make because she’s not happy with her current situation. It’s frustrating.

My ex would pretty frequently go to this YA group when we first started dating so naturally, I would go with him. During this time me and him were having so many issues. Mainly because he’d very often make bad comments on my appearance and then get mad at me for being upset with him, which was already a reg flag.

Anyway the day I start feeling this attraction to his friend was when we attended the group one night and all the young adults were playing a game. A few of us were crowded on the sides of the gym talking while everybody else was in the middle playing some form of volleyball. I was standing next to my ex with my back turned away from the game while he was talking to his friends and cousin (they were all cleaned up against the wall facing the game)

We sat there for a moment chatting, but then someone who was in the game, got too mixed up with where the ball was going and ran directly into me. His whole body literally fell into me and pushed me into my ex’s cousin. Naturally everybody looked to see if I was OK and when I said, yes, everybody went back to what they were doing.

I thought it was OK at first, but then I noticed a sharp pain in the back of my head (I’m assuming when the guy fell into Me he might’ve elbowed me in the head or something) anyway that pain caused me to walk off and go into the bathroom and I was gone for probably 5 to 10 minutes. When I came back, I didn’t walk over to my ex. I instead sat on the gym bleachers as to not be a buzz kill about the whole situation. But then as I was sitting down, my ex’s friend came over to ask me if I was OK. I started telling him yeah that I was fine and I just need to sit down for a second to which he seemed relieved and then started making jokes about the whole situation, which caused me to laugh then he said “ cool I was just making sure you’re OK over here” and walked off. I didn’t think much of it at the moment, but then my head started hurting really bad and so I asked my ex to take me home. When we got in the car that day, my ex started blaming me for not paying attention saying that if I just wasn’t in the way, it would never have happened. This specific moment is when I started realizing the difference in my then boyfriend’s reaction to his friends reaction.

When I initially got hit my then boyfriend wasn’t even the first person to ask me if I was OK he didn’t look for me when I went to the bathroom and he didn’t check on me when I came back. When I asked him why he reacted the way he did he said “I heard everyone else ask if you were okay and you said yes. Plus it’s not like you were bleeding or anything so I just went back to my conversation.”

I feel bad but ever since that moment all I could do was compare my ex to his friend. So for that reason I completely distanced myself from his friend. Until ofc I broke up with my ex. Now..I don’t know I recently friended the guy on fb and I really wanna get to know him..but I I’m waiting to see if he will say anything first. I don’t know if he’s interested and worried about what’ll happen if I make any moves on him. Am I wrong for feeling like this?