u/Character_Emu5423

30 F4F NYC :)
I yearn for a real lover. A woman who knows what she wants, who is sure of herself, who makes room for me in her life and lets me fall into it naturally. Someone I can love loudly and softly, passionately and peacefully. Someone I can come home to and still want to tell everything to.
I don’t think I’m asking for too much. I just want a love that feels intentional. A love that feels safe. A love that feels like two women choosing each other, over and over again, in all the little ways.
Ugh. Is it really that hard to ask for? 😭
DM if you want to connect. I prefer closer to NYC

Hi yall, I’m very depressed, but hiding it well, I have few ideations because it would make this pressure go away. Anyways my parents wouldn’t know what to say. I lost my teaching job 4 months ago, currently living on UE, I have been applying to other roles, only heard back rejections or scams. I have applied for all things related to gov assistance, you name it, I’m on it. I feel like a failure, I am 30. I used to have amazing credit score, savings, travel, and was happy. Now I am unhappy, unsure if I will live to get older, because this financial stress is actually fucking with my head sooooo bad. Why do I feel like I am no good without a job, I am close to eviction on my apartment, asked my friend to move in with me out of desperation, she don’t even have income yet because she is on short term but is going back to work this week and said she’ll pay June rent, I am making such stupid decisions. I feel sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ready to just have it all stop. Ugh I am so tired. Why is it so exhausting to be an adult. I just turned 30 and I’ve never been so depressed.