Friendship advice
Disconnected or out grown?
After months of not going out with my old high school group of friends we finally did and I did not like it 1 bit I felt like an outsider and bored everything felt so forced and fake from my end while everyone else was enjoying themselves even catching up on our lives it felt wrong almost scripted I'm usually an upfront genuine honest person but everything felt wrong and whenever i voice concern about our connection im usually met with "nothing is wrong" now I dont know what to do those are my only friends and I feel pretty bummed out and lonely around them and I dont feel like I can flush down all those years of friendship (10+years) but i feel like they see nothing wrong with superficial surface relationships I'm a genuine honest person and I hate being fake I want a genuine safe place where I can actually let loose and actually speak about my feelings but it feels like I'm surrounded by brick walls maybe ive out grown them or am I just expecting too much I wanna do more than just numb myself with booze and have small talk or talk about useless things what would you guys do