u/Charming-Resident309

I have been post-transplant for over 20 years. I was sick as a baby. I struggled throughout my whole life with nightmares, crying spells, anger issues, emotional dysregulation, weird flashbacks where I feel like something bad is happening to me, severe anxiety, and blatant depression. I get triggered if there's a difference in any blood levels, if there's a mention of a change in anything medical; overall, hypervigilant, tense all over the body.

I struggle with a sense that I was worth the sacrifices made, such as taking part of my father's liver and then my uncle's, which saved my life. Do you ever feel like no matter how much help you get? You can't be helped?

This is all while people tell you to stay grateful. When people talk about my transplants, I get extremely defensive and have immediate negative alterations in mood and cognition. I've been in therapy for the last 5 years, and even my therapists admit it's a slow progression to learning how to cope.

I often have passive SI and thoughts. I want to know if anyone else struggles like this?

I wake up with thoughts like I can't believe I survived or I'll look at my body and start hyperventilating and saying, "I can't believe they did that to me," over and over again, or "What did I do to deserve all that pain?"

I had my transplants at 6 months and 2 and 1/2 years old, with spinal taps and biopsies until I was 4 years old.

The body remembers what I don't think I can, or I remember very little.

I'm 26 years old. I've worn various makeup since I was 17. I stopped wearing it from 2023 to now, and now eyeshadow makes my eyes burn. Mascara makes my eyes burn. If I don't wear it, I don't have the issue. I've tried clean eyeshadows and mascaras, and nothing makes a difference. I'm talking, I put it on, and immediately, my eyes are watering.

I interviewed with SM at a Upstate NY starts with an M location on Monday, April 27 at 12:30. During that interview, she expressed strong interest in moving forward and scheduled an interview with DM for April 28 at 5:00 PM via Microsoft Teams.

I arrived approximately 15 minutes early and remained present until 5:25 PM. The district manager never joined the meeting.

After following up again on April 30, a second interview attempt was scheduled for Wednesday, May 6 at 10:30 AM. Once again, I arrived early and waited until approximately 11:00 AM without the district manager attending. At that point, SM admitted over the phone that the interview times had been incorrectly communicated.

After additional follow-up attempts and little communication, SM finally contacted me on May 8 and stated over the phone verbally that they would “more likely just move forward without the second interview.” This seemed like a huge red flag. I assumed I was being actively hired.

Several days later, on May 12, I received a message from SM stating that because I had previously left Starbucks “with no notice,” I was considered non-rehireable and could not be brought back. She said that I would be best applying at Target, Barnes and Noble, and Starbucks Adjacent locations.

The thing about this is - I called the partner line today at 11 am, and had someone look up whether I was considered rehireable or not. The person on the phone kept saying I was hireable despite SM implying I was not.

What makes this particularly frustrating is:

● I had already been transparent during the interview process regarding my previous

departure from Starbucks, which occurred three years ago.

● This issue apparently was not identified until after multiple attempts of interviews and

weeks of communication.

● I was repeatedly asked to rearrange my schedule and attend interviews that

Management itself failed to attend.

● Communication throughout the process was inconsistent and unclear.

Most disappointing was the lack of professionalism and empathy shown throughout the

experience. I spent over two weeks believing I was actively being hired, only to later be told

Otherwise, after repeated scheduling mistakes and conflicting information.

I strongly believe this situation reflects a serious breakdown in communication, organization,

and candidate handling. Regardless of the final hiring decision, applicants deserve accurate

scheduling, transparency, and respectful communication throughout the process.

Update: DM reached out, and said sorry (kind of), and when I asked why he wasn't present nor responding to emails for the whole duration of the process until now - he basically said, "that's never happened before." like wow, this is bad.

I left three years ago because of a bad manager. I left with no notice. She yelled in my face over wearing the apron when wiping tables, and I cried.

I did a good interview at a new location. This manager then sent this,

"Hi, 

I was waiting to hear back from our partner contact center because all previous employees have to go through them. 

Unfortunately, because no notice was given when you left the old location, I am not able to bring you."

I've heard of bosses overriding it, but I left my old job after crying, as I was young and clueless! It was one of my first jobs. I waited for this for two weeks, and I just feel like I wasted my time.

I feel I've likely been blacklisted, as the manager verbally said she could start me soon, but I feel like she played me a little bit.

I have run into an issue, and need someone to talk to.

This blueair 311 max is making my astham significantly worse, why might that be?