u/Chicken-Inspector

I posted here about a month or so ago regarding going back as an adult (38M) learner to finally get my music degree. After many back & forth emails with the advisor and admissions offices, I felt like this would be something I could do. I wrote up my personal statement, got my recommendation letters, and as an extra I submitted two songs I wrote this year in Logic. I got the email back saying they accepted me for the Songwriting and Music Production program!

I'm super ecstatic about this! This honestly was a school I always wanted to go to but for various reasons didn't believe it was anything more than a pipe dream. Granted its online (kinda wish I could get a redo the college life phase of my life), and part time but I'm still a bit in disbelief that I was considered as anything close to being qualified enough to be accepted to Berklee. I am so freaking happy!

I'm halfway through music for beginners atm (took it as a personal remediation class before I started to think about going back) and will start as an official student in June taking Theory 101.

I've been trying to reach out to other students to make friends, connections, network, etc with minor success, and that has been the hardest thing. I'm both kinda introverted but also online schooling ups the difficulty of meeting other classmates and making meaningful connections. But the online program looked pretty robust and something that had a lot of work put into. I don't live anywhere close to MA, so visiting is not something that I would be able to pull off easily w/ a full-time job, but I'm thinking that next year I may go to the On-Campus workshop that is held every year (cant recall the name atm). Unable to go to it this year, unfortunately.

So if anyone wants to connect (be you an online student or a campus student), lemme know and I can shoot you a DM with my contact info, school email etc...

So im taking a theory class atm and we are studying intervals. ATM im quizing myself on m2, M2, m3, M3, P5, and d5 intervals. I'm using the tenuto app but when I am studying and quizing myself on notation intervals I always need to either be using my midi keyboard or draw a keyboard from C to C as a visual aid. Somehow I feel like I am cheating and am supposed to be able to do it without the use of a keyboard. Is this true or am I just being super strict and hard on myself?

I am a visual learner and d/t having (diagnosed) ADHD mental things like mental math, counting, or even doing notation is extremely difficult without a visual there to aid my short term memory. I've tried without it but not only does it slow me down by a significant degree, I get more and more intervals incorrect when compared to using the keyboard.

So for my theory classes I have been having to demonstrate singing in the key of a given scale over a backing track, improving using the correct notes within said given scale, keeping pitch, being able to hit the correct notes etc etc. My first time having to do assignment for class was today, and while it was only with my teacher present (it is an online program), the minute I started I just get super flushed, sweaty, dizzy, my vision starts to get fuzzy. I froze and my voice went flat and weak and then i just stopped. I'm so embarrassed.

I would love to learn how to sing, and this exercise really just hurt me. I know this is a common problem people have, embarrassment and nerves, but I feel like my reaction is fairly extreme. Idk what to do or what resources are out there to help. And I'm pretty embarrassed about how it ended up for me today so asking my teacher just...well...it feels embarrassing. (yes yes yes...i have cripplingly bad self esteem and am very shy). I sing all the time when alone at home or in the car, but the minute I know (or think) someone can hear me or see me I get this reaction. idk what to do to get over it.

So yeah, I hope this wasn't against the subs rules. I just don't know where to turn to. I see a therapist and this has come up many times, but I feel like getting advice from a musician as opposed to a mental health professional would be more beneficial and appropriate.

I got ugritone drums (KVLT drums 2 and OSDM) plugins the other day. Had some errors when trying to launch it (something weird about there being duplicates when there wasnt), so i uninstalled it and tried to install it again (initially i had it on my external SSD, but now im having it installed on my macbook).

everything seems to go okay, but when i open logic and select a software instrument plugin, it is not listed. at all. ive scanned for plugins under logic settings, nothing, rescanned every plugin i have, nothing (im resetting my laptop everytime i do this too btw). I've deleted my audio unit cache and restarted logic. nothing.

I can find the location of the plugin in the component folder. I can find the samples. But logic cannot. Im at the end of my rope and no amount of google-fu is helping.

Any ideas to help me get this figured out? It's driving me insane that I can't get this fixed.

I have krimh drums. I really like it, but it doesn't always fit the mood im going for. Was snooping at Ugritone drums offerings and I like how the KVLT Drums series sounds, and the OSDM, but to my ears every preset sounds teh same. as in all the various presets for KVLT drums sound kinda like the same thing. OSDM more so. (i don't mean that OSDM asnd KVLT sound like each other). Then toon track is a name i've heard a lot from forums in the prog circles, devin townsend and I believe Tomas Haake worked on some kits for them. Then i don't quite understand EZ drummer, and superior drummer looks like it's great if you love mixing.

I kinda make whatever I feel like tbh. I don't really stick to a single metal genre. Just exploring my creativity. Krimh has worked great for me but doesn't sound right for black metal. Probably coming down with a case of virtual instrument acquisition syndrome, but feck it. lol.