u/ChildhoodWinter9075

I want to play in order of how the stories “should” go.
I started with Zen, then Jaehee and got their good endings. I kinda didn’t want to do Yoosung so I saved him for last but I ended up getting his bad ending ???? Now I’m mad lol I love Yoosung but I just see him as a lil bro so his route didn’t interest me too much. Should I redo his route for the good ending, and THEN start deep story ? Idk if I miss out on anything big if I go straight to Jumin’s route.

I’ve been really conflicted about whether I want children, and I’m curious to hear from parents who have been through this thought process.
I genuinely like kids, but I’m also a very independent and, honestly, somewhat selfish person when it comes to my time. I love sleeping in, taking life at a slower pace, spending an entire day doing nothing if I feel like it, and being able to “clock out” after work. One thing that intimidates me about motherhood is that it seems like the job never truly ends.
I’m also pretty forgetful and clumsy, which makes me question whether I’d even be a good parent.
Whenever I bring this up to parents, though, they almost always tell me that I’d be missing out on the greatest love and joy a woman can experience. That makes me wonder if I’m overthinking things or if it’s something you can’t understand until you have children.
Culturally, being child-free is heavily frowned upon where I come from, so I grew up assuming I’d become a mom someday. But as I’ve gotten older, I’ve realized I’m genuinely scared of pregnancy, childbirth, and how much motherhood seems to change a woman’s life. I’m afraid of putting my body through something so physically demanding just for a lifelong responsibility that will age me faster.
I already struggle with severe anxiety, body image issues, afraid of getting blood taken, hate doing annual Pap smears, literally none of these things compares to what many moms have to endure. and I can’t imagine how much I would worry about my child every day. I also worry I’d end up feeling resentful, knowing that my current life and identity would change so drastically while my future husband’s life might remain much closer to what it is now. It often feels like mothers give up far more freedom than fathers do.
The hardest part is dating. When men ask me how many kids I want, I don’t even know how to answer because I’m not sure I want children at all.
For parents who had doubts before becoming parents, how did you know? Do you ever miss your old life, or did the love for your child truly outweigh everything you gave up? And for those who think someone with my concerns probably shouldn’t have kids, I’d genuinely like to hear that perspective too.

Please what can I do about my belly???? It’s so so so tiring to see in the mirror everyday. I can’t stand looking at my body. My whole life I’ve looked 5months pregnant and I’m only 22. Nothing ever makes it go away!! I feel so insecure daily. I never asked for this. Why do so many women get lucky to avoid this condition??? What about me is not worthy of a flat stomach??? Why did I have to get cursed this way?? I’m too young for this. All my friends are models and I’m not even saying that figuratively. They literally started to work as models with their perfect bodies. And I am the token ugly girl that gets included. I just wish I looked like a normal, fit, healthy, 22 year old girl. I have no butt, all my fat goes to my ABDOMEN. WHYYYY???

I live in the states as a secret atheist girl, in a Muslim household. Rules can be strict for me, although they were way worse before. Anyways, I don’t even know where to start or what to even say right now. I feel so lonely. I always feel like I’m in a box. I feel like my 20s are being wasted away in my room. I have no drive or determination for anything, because things I wanted to do as a child were immediately shut down. I have no dreams, no passions , no goals. Life is not that fun. All my friends have distanced themselves from me because I’m never allowed to do anything fun. My parents shame me for everything I do, and when I get depressed for it—I get screamed at and punished. I love my parents but I hate their mindset. They genuinely believe everything they do is in my best interest, which is why I can’t leave. They love me and took care of me my whole life. Sure, they are ignorant and made plenty of mistakes but who doesn’t? They were an arranged marriage and thankfully they don’t want me in that position. But they still make my life feel so isolating and miserable. I don’t have a car, i can’t move out, I have a curfew, I can’t have sleepovers, they yell at me if I’m doing anything other than working or grocery shopping, they hate my fashion, they don’t let me date, go anywhere slightly far, travel alone or with friends, etc,. I mean, what do I do? I’m not being abused or hurt.. but I don’t feel like I have a good life. Plus, moving out is not affordable these days even if I was ready to. Part of me considers getting married to just get it all over with and escape that way, but I don’t want to live with a man. I don’t know what I want or what to do. I wish I always had the freedom to choose since birth, now making a choice has become my biggest battle. I wish I was born a man. I wish I was born a man. Why do women have to exist?? This life is torture for us.