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I just had the worst 12 hour shift of my entire career. I am a home health CNA and I accepted this assignment of a paralyzed man. I have worked with partial paralyzed people but not quadriplegic and that’s what he was. Also usually they tell us in the bio if a client is easily irritated or confused but this time they didn’t put it in. I walked in there blind.

I made so many mistakes. The first one was when repositioning him. In my school we were taught to use pillows but he used wedges. It was hell. He was fussing at me and questioned my career. I really wished I would’ve known he was mean because I don’t work well with intense pressure and rude people. Him and his wife were yelling at me to pull him back and my dumbass pulled him forward🤦🏾‍♀️. I was overthinking like hell.

Whenever he talks he mumbles and it doesn’t make it better when his TV volume is up to 72. He asked me “what are we paying you for?” When I didn’t immediately remember what he ate 6 hours ago. Mind you I don’t know exactly what he had because his daughter brought him something from Starbucks. So I said starbucks and he was like “oh that’s right.” Also it’s not required to note meals in his chart so it wasn’t that important. Omg. I fucking suck ass at this.

I mean he was just agitated towards me. I almost cried and walked out. I felt so useless and uncomfortable that I didn’t even eat when they offered me food. Like I never had a client who was nasty even when I was trying my best. All of my clients like me. I know I sound like a baby but this shit hurt.

I don’t think the direct patient care is for me. Like I literally applied to Chipotle and have an interview tomorrow. I’m sorry it’s just whenever someone is being mean in intense situations I overthink. My mind goes blank. That’s what was happening the whole shift. I hesitated on everything which made him even more angry. I didn’t trust myself for 12 hours straight. Overwhelmed all day.

I’m just gonna stick with biology and go into research. At least my microbes won’t be upset at me. I hope I get this cashier job.

I had a bad trip after taking an edible from a smoke shop. I started to believe that I lived in Bikini Bottom, someone was watching me on TV, and couldn’t tell what was real or not.

The worst of all is that I sexually assaulted and bit my mother. I did it because I believed that I could feel her “energy” and she was mad at me. I know it sounds fucking sick but that what I did. I remember holding onto her and an officer repeatedly saying “You guys are the only thing that is real to me right now.” The police also told me that I was the “3rd person today to experience this”. Next thing you know I’m in the ambulance making Michael Jackson noises.

After that I don’t remember anything for sure because I can’t tell if it was an hallucinations or reality. From now on I’m never touching a drug again. Not even alcohol. What I did was so stupid. I just turned 21 and I wanted to celebrate by buying it. I waited so long to try it and it went terrible.

To the ones who have a mental illness like me (Major Depression Disorder) Please! Talk to your psychiatrist first before trying anything. Don’t be stupid like me thinking if you start off small everything would be fine. I probably have a new diagnosis now because of it.

My uncle made a weird comment yesterday and I can’t get over it. For context we are both black and we got on the conversation about race. He started saying how he thinks differently about what is racist.

He started saying how he thinks destroying and taking down things that were made to honor people who held slaves were silly because that’s what was legal back then. He said if that continues to happen we wouldn’t have anything else left. At this part I didn’t care too much about that so I just let him talked until he said that “the slaves could have been treated well. He was like we don’t know how they were actually treated.” Now I’m like wtf there were actually slave codes saying how a black person can receive a hundred lashes, fingers cut off for reading and what not. Whoever held slaves we’re not a good person regardless if they were treated well. Having another person as your property is dehumanizing as fuck so stfu.

And then he started to talk about how on Facebook he sees black kids applying for 200+ colleges and get into all of them is stupid. He was like we brag about them too much and how “applying to that many colleges is stupid because you could only go to one.” I’m like okay so whatever that’s their business. Then this man had the nerve to fix his mouth to say “and we all know those were not academic scholarships.” I’m like so that was a passive aggressive comment that reflects the stereotype that black people are not smart. When I confronted to him he immediately changed the subject.

Now I’m upset because my uncle was someone who I went to for support and safety due to crazy family drama. However he is a very opinionated person and loves to argue since he’s a lawyer he practices it on everyone he meets. This is not the first time he said crazy things like this and I am disappointed in him. I think I’m going to cut back my time with him because I don’t want to hear that

Just the title :)

I love being queer. Even though for me it comes with discrimination, disowning and ridiculing from family and others. Above all of that I love being attracted to women. It took me so long to accept that part of myself and now I can finally embrace it. I now embrace the butterflies in my stomach when I talk to beautiful women or my eyes lingering whenever I see one. To be a woman and having the ability to love another woman is truly a superpower. To find a love that is not afraid to go against long standing patriarchal norms is amazing.

I’m ngl I’m a little tipsy so I’m not make sense. But I love women and women who love women. Happy pride forever

If they can cheat on their SO then they will cheat in other relationships. Cheaters are selfish liars who cannot communicate their feelings. Therefore, they will not be honest with you and be quick to not value your feelings.

Never trust a cheater. Do not enable or be passive towards their narcissistic actions. Cut them off now before you become their next victim.

I got hurt by one. I was by her side through all the ugly times. I could have ditched her but I didn’t. I still believed she was a good person. I told her about herself and how what she was doing wasn’t right. But when things got ugly for me she left. She treated me like I was a monster. I had no support from her when times got ugly for me.

I hate being used. Fuck you narcissistic coward.

If they can cheat on their SO then they will cheat in other relationships. Cheaters are selfish liars who cannot communicate their feelings. Therefore, they will not be honest with you and be quick to not value your feelings.

Never trust a cheater. Do not enable or be passive towards their narcissistic actions. Cut them off now before you become their next victim.

I got hurt by one. I was by her side through all the ugly times. I could have ditched her but I didn’t. I still believed she was a good person. I told her about herself and how what she was doing wasn’t right. But when things got ugly for me she left. She treated me like I was a monster. I had no support from her when times got ugly for me.

I hate being used. Fuck you narcissistic coward.

If they can cheat on their SO then they will cheat in other relationships. Cheaters are selfish liars who cannot communicate their feelings. Therefore, they will not be honest with you and be quick to not value your feelings.

Never trust a cheater. Do not enable or be passive towards their narcissistic actions. Cut them off now before you become their next victim.