u/Clea-1086

Hi! I live somewhere around Lübeck and would like to know more what could the city offer and meet new people.

I would say that I am more into alternative stuff, culture, music, drawing or creative stuff. Food of course....

I am also not against meeting other French speaking people (I am french), my German is not that great but my English is ok, and could also love to meet other LGBTQI / Flinta people.

[TW] psychatry, suicide etc.

Since few weeks I am in a really bad situation. After more that 3 years of overwork and regular burnout, I finaly decided to connect again with myself and stop suffering. The same week, my partner (7 years, business together) broke up with me.

I have several psychiatric issues I think, also autism or schizophrenia, paranoia and dissociative personality. Maybe not all, but suspensions.

I am also having big issues with my gender. I stopped my transition 4 years ago because I was afraid it won't be accepted by the clients and audience, and I have 50 employees to think about. Now I know I can't keep it hidden anymore.

One of my voices, who is dragging me down since I am 18 (I identified it at this age at least) place me an ultimatum at told me I should suicide on the 30 November if I dont feel better. After that it will be December Xmas etc and they know I would not be able to go though. So it's to spare me some pain.

I have an appointment with a clinic the 20.08.

Aside, my parents have alternatively à New cancer every year, who also bring stress and increase my level of crisis etc.

My dad act as a man and ignore my situation, can't speak about emotions without being violent, my mum is giving me normative advices, tell me things which are really closed to the voice I talked about, and in such situation talking with both is horrible.

They are normative, drag me down, and trigger some masculinity trais (due to my education and the way we learned to communicate). They are also full of hate for everybody outside of the Wolfpack, which is also really toxic to me. They don't know what I go through, they don't know my life, believe they do, and are a huge source of pain, and as you understand, feed my morbid voices.

I tried to explain b they don't understand. Last time I had a broke up, I didn't talked to them for few monthesx and it helped a lot. But they still reproach that to me and say it broke them.

Now my mum is using her cancers to make me talk to her, say that "for the few tine they have left they will always love me".

The exact message: "Okay. I wish you good luck and know that for the time we have left, we assure you that you can always count on us and we will always love you." She sent it twice.

My mum also talk regularly of suicide if my dad die first.

I told them I don't want to talk about me, my situation and my life with them, but my mum can't respect that.

I called my dad to tell him that if she continues I will block her.

Now she send me emojies... I am 40btw.

I feel that blocking them will help me a lot but will be horrible for them. So I don't... but I really want to.

Hi everyone. I dont know if its the good spot but I am searching for friendship. I am a non Binary person searching for other people to talk with, exchange, support each other and be friends.

I live in Germany in a small city where many people know me and like me, or think they do. My work place me in a quite social environment, I have to be friend and talk with many people, represent many people be often on the local newspaper, etc.

People like what I am doing and the image I give, but all this is just a face, and all of my interactions are connected to work, or comeback to it.

This is why it's a new account, I want to meet fresh, without people knowing about me. Start genuine conversations and see how things go.

Still some info about me and what I like, things that are important to know. Take it as a list of trigger warning:

Non-Binary, Queer, LGBTQ, French, Vegan, Politically engaged on the extreme/radical left but don't want to educate people, queer feminist, decolonial, anticolonial, cat lover, a bit chubby but want to motivate to sport, love drawing but lost motivation, trying to go back to it, love reading to but, as drawing feel extreamly guilty I don't do more often, so I don't do at all because guilt is the first feeling.

I also need and wait for therapy. As many people do I guess.

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Ok je vie en allemagne mais originaire de France. Je suis tjrs énormément la vie publique et politique fr.

Quand je vois le climat, les feux, les températures extrêmes etc...

Je comprend vraiment pas pk tout le monde est pas dehors pour foutre la pression. Ok fait chaud..

Mais alors je comprend encore moins pk les partis d'opposition, surtout de gauche n'en font pas le centre de leur campagne ou de leurs propos.

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Ok je vois pas comment le RN pourrait dir que c les faute de l'islam...

Je vois pas aussi comment les libéraux pouvait expliquer que c bien et que ça facilite l'innovation et le marché

Mais les parti de gauche sérieux, surtout anticapitalistes... là on a un boulevard pour expliquer pk le capitalisme est destructif, en quoi l'accaparement des ressources est mortifaire, et surtout pk les Services publique c utile pour tous!

When I am feeling good and stable, that easy for me to feel agender. Sometime, when big emotions are here, that's easy to feel like a woman.

But when I am stressed and angry, some toxic trays are taking over. And I tend to identify them as masculine.

It's maybe not more the feeling, but the way i was (not?)educated to deal well with them. After 3 ton4 years of working really a lot and the last 3 years around 300-400h per monthes, I Burned-out and get less tolerance. That's plus people dead naming me constantly, I feel that this part of me taht i hate took over and consumed me.

I don't want to go back to this anymore, and I am really afraid that, at some point, I would be angry and frustrated again in my life.

Do someone felt the same? What solution or advice?

Is taking oestrogene helping?

Hi everyone!

My name is Cléa, I am a French NB (amab) living in northern germany on a small town.

After many hesitations I decided to join Reddit to find support on my gender quest, questioning, transition, whatever we want to call it.

I am here because I don't find a lot off support locally, or not the good one, and the person who are around me can't help me any longer (romantic break up, overwhelmed etc).

I feel a bit lost myself and have a lot of doubts.

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It doesn't help, because I think I am fluid (70% agender 30% woman, or its how I feel it), but I am not sure because I also have chronic depression, mood changes etc.

If we were living in a word without gender I would probably not question myself. I don't have physical disphoria on its own, or my severe at least, more psychological I think.

If the Queer Fairy come to me tonight and ask me how I want to wake up, and everyone would automacly agree and accept it (part of the fairy offer) without any second of hesitation I will ask to wake up as a woman.