u/ClerksII

Full of himself? Sure

Way too proud of “ smushing,” and acts like it’s an accomplishment? Definitely.

But when I watch season 1 and season 2, I actually see that he’s a decent guy, all things considered and maybe a better guy than Pauly. Pauly‘s probably second though, only because he was way too happy to hook up with Jenni, knowing she had a boyfriend.

But Mike tried SO HARD with Angelina. He gave her the most chances of everyone, even inviting her out right after that nasty fight where he called her a dirty hamster and he apologized for a different fight, when he had no reason to. He just asked her to clean the kitchen so he can cook, since she does absolutely nothing.

Angelina just keeps being rude and trying to start fights when NOBODY wanted to fight her. And Pauly was right, every fight that happens, happens because of her. Even going all the way back to the cab, she started a weird fight, and then as Mike is inviting her out with them ( on her last episode) she immediately starts it all up again.

Anyway, at the end of the fight where Angelina leaves, Jenni says something like Mike can push a lot of buttons, but I just don’t get that vibe. Unless he got better editing than Angelina to make her the villain, it looks like he’s usually a pretty decent guy. I kinda wonder if it’s one of those situations where a person is blunt and some people take that personally. And I know Vinny and Snooki had a few issues with him in season 1, but he seems okay, all things considered.

Am I way off base?

EDITED: To clarify, I’m on my first watch. Never watched this back in school, but got interested when I saw some clips.

They almost look like they’re about to fight each other. They have tough expressions and mischievous smiles on their faces. But when they see each other, they stop and smile smugly. Then Helga just walks by.

What was the plan?

I was thinking about it earlier. When we learn about Tom’s life growing up, we find out he was already hurting animals, keeping trophies from past victims, and hurting others, either for fun, or to subjugate, punish, and control.

I’m not into serial killers at all. Never have been. I went out to see a movie years ago with my parents, and it was about a guy stalking and attacking teens at a theme park. At the end, we see that the guy had kept a few of their things and put them in a cabinet. I swear, I was in my 20s, and I was like,” I thought it was neat the killer kept some mementos, it’s just like Voldemort in Harry Potter!”

And my mom was like,” Interesting. Did it ever say if Voldemort hurt animals?”

And I was like,” Oh! Yes! He killed a rabbit and was said to be hurting kids and had zero empathy for anyone else.”

And my mom was like, “ That's very typical behavior for serial killers. “

And I was like,” What?!”

I think it’s really interesting she was able to get all that Information in the character, while still making it appropriate for a kid of 12 to read. It’s definitely dark and creepy, but it never goes over the line. Anytime the topic comes up or if I happen to be in the room while someone’s watching something about them, it almost always mentions animals or trophies.

Always a fun story for me to tell whenever the topic comes up.

Did anyone else have a similar realization later on?

My ears have been ringing since last June. More than one year and I’m finally getting a couple of procedures that have about a 40% chance of working. My sleep schedule is damaged because I can’t sleep, so I stay up as late as possible and then go to sleep. I don’t get to enjoy mornings anymore, and my days consist of sleeping, working, or phone.

I miss reading. I miss writing. I know it’s not true, but sometimes when I’m really upset, I imagine that scene in Napoleon Dynamite. I’m just happy and feeling good about life and like things are gonna go well, and the Lord throws a steak at my face to show off for Jesus. 

( I know it’s not what happens, it’s mostly me making myself laugh at the situation. I know there’s some lesson to be learned from this)

I know there’s a reason. I figured maybe it was making me appreciate my hearing loss that I had before, because it wasn’t great but at least my ears didn’t ring. 

Honestly, I guess I hoped if I figured out the reason then it would stop. Or if I just laid there and took it, it would stop. Or if I maybe just accept that this might be the new normal, and I need to go therapy and see if they can make me not notice it, it would stop. 

You guys, I’m tired. In more ways than one.  :(

I’ve prayed so hard and long, to the point where sometimes all niceties are gone. I’ll just start with, “ Hey, it’s me, the girl who didn’t sleep again. What’s good?” 

Not that exactly, but I don’t see the point in lying about how I feel. I’m trying to talk to Him like a friend or how I speak to anyone.

…But it still feels like I’m being kept down.  I had a thought once that maybe God needs me to be still and just not do anything. But I’m really, really, unhappy. And I’m not even sure that’s what He wants me to do, it was just me messing around again. 

Like he couldn’t trust me to actually be still and not do anything, so he was like, short of having her paralyzed, how can I keep her doing the same three things over and over again for one year? And not do anything else until I ( The Lord) am ready. 

Prayers that these procedures work, I get my life back. I have one or two more appointments to go, and after that, I’ll try therapy. I made an appointment earlier but they can’t get me in until September, and that’s just the consult. I probably won’t start until October and I guess it’ll be well into the New Year before things change. :(

You guys, I’m really, really, tired.

Nothing has changed or improved.

I’ve auditioned for a face character a few times, one for Disney World, and a few for Disneyland and never made it through the first round. That darn dance routine gets me every time.

Recently, it came up that they’re having auditions for Japan’s Disney Resort about 10 minutes from my house and I’m debating on going.

Will they audition me the same as the last few times? Does Japan’s characters emphasize something different? And any tips for passing the darn dance routine?

What does that mean? Is Ron asking Luna if she’s screwing with him?

It’s right when they first meet and she laughs at Ron‘s joke.

There’s a certain texture of dessert that I just despise and have never liked. But I’m in my 30s and don’t want to keep saying,” Pudding Thingy.”

Anything with mousse is icky, especially when there’s nothing harder in it. It’s just… a pudding thing. Custard, icky. Cheesecake is fine and often delicious if the ( blank) is a little harder or firmer and not as gooey. Crème Brulee has a weird gooey thing going on as well.

Recently, we went to Woody‘s Rodeo Roundup and they give you a plate of shareable desserts and I didn’t like any of them because they were weird gooey things. A different restaurant had bread pudding.

I’m looking for a blanket term, but anything else you guys want to add would be great.

( Example: I love cookies, pies, and cakes, so I love pastries. )

What are these desserts I don’t like?

The title.

It was one of those work movies that we have to watch and sign off on. Health and Safety, Active Shooter Safety, Handling Difficult Guests, etc.

But this one said that Little People can feel intimidated if you’re standing near them while taking their order and would prefer it if you either kneel or else sit down at the table with them.

I‘m almost 5’6. So when I saw and heard that on the video that felt extremely ridiculous to me. I wouldn’t be here at all except, wouldn’t you know it, I saw a couple last night who were both Little People. I panicked and did the only thing I could think of, which was to take their order the way I do to any other person.

Afterwards I got nervous and wondered if maybe it was a sting operation and I failed the test.

So, do people with Dwarfism prefer waitstaff to kneel or sit with them? Or is that weird? Because that feels weird to me, and kind of patronizing because I used to be a teacher, and we called that Being On Level with the Child.

I‘m sure I can find or else post info on the movie if anyone’s interested, but I’d like someone to tell me whether or not that’s okay. Like I said, it feels condescending and weird to me to invade a person’s space like that, but obviously, if the video is accurate, then I’ll adjust accordingly. Thank you :)

See, in one of the Star Wars movies, Vader tells his Admiral he’s failed him for the last time, and has him killed. It’s been a while but I’m pretty sure it happened in another Star Wars movie.

In MI3, the lady who was head of security and also kind of an assistant failed to protect her boss, and he killed her.

So why on Earth are you agreeing to work for them, knowing that one fuck up could have you killed? Even if the boss put up a front and was super nice to you, you have a front row seat to all the evil they do to everyone else. You can’t seriously think you’ll be the exception.

And you can’t be surprised when they come after you. It just doesn’t seem like the money is worth that kind of risk. Seems to me if you’re smart enough to handle that kind of job, and you were hired for it, you could do something similar where your life isn’t constantly in peril.

I’ve never been really close to anyone and I’m almost 37, now. From the time I was a kid, through middle school, high school, college, 20s, and now my 30s, I’m constantly being interrupted, talked over, or “ forgotten” in terms of a conversation. A particularly awful one for me is when I’m having a conversation with someone and I’m the one speaking, and the person I’m talking to’s face lights up at seeing someone else, they talk for a minute or two, they look back at me and say sorry, I‘ll just wrap up whatever it was I was saying, and then they’ll actively move quickly toward whoever they were speaking to.

I’ve wondered sometimes if it’s because I never did or wanted to do any of the things that most people have done by now. I didn’t party in school ( no invites), I didn’t sneak out, I’ve dated a lot, but either I broke it off or they did, and it was really clean and amicable. Not a big drinker, and I don’t smoke.

There was also a definite change when I mention my painting and I l‘m taking classes and entering a contest soon

Reason I bring it up is because it always feels like after one or multiple conversations of those sort of topics, they start to pull away.

I love listening and have fun when they have conversations about sneaking out, or getting drunk, or silly things they did to their exes when they were angry. It’s always really fun and funny and I don’t judge them at all, but wonder if they think I am?

I don’t have kids and I’m planning a vacation for summertime. I‘m also going to a few concerts and might spend time with a cousin coming into town. I say that because I noticed a change in their faces when I said I didn’t have any and don’t want any.

It‘s like people can’t get close to me, but they’ll tell me they’re really personal stuff. Random people especially, but once we talk and get to know each other, it’s like they pull away.

Is this an INFP thing or am I just a goody two shoes? Do I make people uncomfortable? I’ve asked a very trustworthy friend if I smell bad or have bad breath or if I’m doing something wrong and she’s told me multiple times no.

Anyone else relate or is it just me?

Ever since high school, I’ve always been easygoing and get along with lots of people. But every so often when a scandalous story is being told, I’m shooed away in a would be casual and funny way. It really and truly does not seem to be mean-spirited, but it still happens well into my adulthood.

Not that I don’t hear scandalous stories. People are pretty open with me. But when I tell them my sad dating history of four that never went past the third date, or that I’ve never smoked, or they see me drink anywhere from 1-3 drinks with a shot occasionally, it seems like I hear their stories less and less. Hanging out with people outside work or other settings seems to make us a not as close.

To clarify, I never tell anyone’s secrets or repeat what I hear, and I’m not a grandma. Drink what you want, I don’t care! I make the choices I make because of my own family history, and personal reasons.

Like the fact that alcohol makes my breath smell bad and cigarette smoke gets caught in my hair, messing up my hair washing schedule and giving me frizzies.

So: Are people uncomfortable with me? Are you guys uncomfortable with me? And why?

I’m cool. Honest!