u/Commercial_Studio187

whenever I try to do them I feel tons of pressure there and I don't feel anything in my thighs or butt

yt music is giving me them a lot and I don't like them much..

My ear canals are too small for normal earbuds (even the smallest option often falls out and when it doesn't fall the pressure inside the ear is too annoying and I'm tired of how bulky my headphones are, earbuds look much more comfortable. The problem is noise canceling is super important to me, I don't like hearing my environment when I listen to music and outside I'm often in noisy environments...

I want to watch something on Netflix that's not available in my country

I told him I want to go no contact 2 weeks ago because she told me she is not over her ex and I found out she is still talking to her... it broke my heart so much to hear about it. I knew something was "wrong" for quite a while because she ghosted me a lot and didn't show much affection only sometimes and it got me stuck in a loop. She messed my heart so badly and I still can't stop thinking about her I want her back so badly but she probably doesn't even think about me and doesn't feel my absence... I want to move on so much I spend hours every day thinking about her while feeling she doesn't give a fuck about me for months and feeling my heart heart all the time unless she wanted to do stuff with me which made me feeling better for a few days and the emotional rollercoaster by her continued. I hate her sometimes for that but I also love her and want to feel how she made me feel when we met she was my best friend before we started to catch feelings for each other... She was the one who also initiated things at the start when we stopped being platonic, the first one to say I love you ect... Why did she do it to me if she just wanted to get with her ex again? I don't know what to do... I didn't have a bond like I had with her with someone for a long time and she just threw it all for a toxic ex. I hate it so much I wish I could still have her, I want her to be mine, or that things never stopped being platonic I could've handle being heartbroken by having a stupid crush much better at the start I also played dumb a lot whenever she wanted to initiate something because I liked how things were when we were platonic and didn't feel the urge to go farther but at some point I gave in and somehow I'm the one who got her heart broken the most at the end... It even felt like she liked me more for a while..

I love her and I hate her and I miss her at the same time

even though I blocked her I still wait for a message from her all the time or at least for something from a mutual friend because when I or she complain about each other with this mutual friend they can't shut their mouth and always tell us that we said something... at least a sign like that so I would know she still thinks about me...