u/CommonExamination143

After a sudden breakup, on top of work stress, loneliness, and the fact that the only person i really talked to is the one that dumped me, i finally bit the bullet and scheduled a session, one through better help on Sunday then an in person on Tuesday.

The moment I had thoughts about self harm, I was going to go to the ER but decided to try a Hope center, or whatever. I have no one. I’m terrified to tell my family about the thoughts I’m having because they will only gossip or act like I’m overreacting.

I knew I was alone, but i didn’t realize how bad it truly was until now. Im trying to distract myself by talking to AI bots but that only gets so far til im starting at the ceiling again.

8 years, and he left me for someone he’d been texting for a week. He started texting her on the 8th then dropped my shit off on the 13th.

We were fine, we were in a good place. We hadn’t been seeing each other as much because we both work crazy hours but I thought it was a sacrifice to be made in order for us to finally move in together.

He’s 31. I’m 27. She’s 22. He downgraded severely tho. She has a kid, lives with her parents, just got out of a 7 year abusive relationship, doesn’t have license, a car, doesn’t know how to drive works at grocery store.

I can’t really fault the girl for living with her parents, I do too til the end of the year. He does too. She knew about me. She encouraged him to leave. Why do fucking women do this? Millions of lonely fucking men in the world and you go for taken ones?

Why are men like this? I don’t even care that he doesn’t want to be with me anymore. It’s the fact that he didn’t communicate, he dropped my things off , and that was it. No respect or love for the person that’s been by your side for the past 8 years. I have done entirely too much for him, I feel stupid for ever thinking i would marry him.

We spent the weekend together during to already paying for a trip. And we cried together, he broke down and said he didn’t want to break up but he was already too far gone into his mess. And the state he was in genuinely terrified me. It made me feel like he’s going through something.

Im hurting so bad. My heart won’t slow down, im freezing cold, lightheaded, trembling. I feel like im dying.

People keep telling me that I can do better, that everyone’s gone through heartbreak and it doesn’t help. It doesn’t erase the damn near decade I’ve spent with him. It’s making me feel worse.

Edit: In regards to us not living together , we did, but not very long. I moved in with my grandmother because she was 98 and needed help. I did not want to leave her. I was helping my family care for her. She was put into a nursing home at 100 and I had to move out quickly after almost a year of figuring out what was going to happen to her house. I was hoping to take out a loan to take over, but that didn’t happen, so I went to my mother’s. His parents also told him that he could get the house. They were manipulating him into staying . We agreed that this was gonna be our last year living under other people. We were planning on moving out the end of this year or beginning of next.

Should I just get a switch 2? I’m not too worried about the price right now.

I know the switch lite is not really recommended. Is the switch 2 worth is or the original switch okay as well?